What I Wish You'd Say

I feel the weight of the world

become the essence of my soul

I look for you beyond the stars

Hoping for something more

 

And I wonder if you hear me

And I wonder if you think of me

I wonder if you miss me

Is this the way it's supposed to be?

 

When you cry, when you laugh, when you fall

Do you wonder if I think of you?

When you toss and you turn and you can't find the words

Do you wonder if this was meant to be

 

And i wonder if you hear me

And i wonder if you know

The things that go on within mind

And the bitter-sweet sorrow within  my soul

 

I look back on yesterday

And I wonder where we could have been

I don't know what I could have said

But I know something woulda been better then nothin

 

I took your words and made them mine

I took your heart and took your time

I figured it would be better this way

And now I'm left with memories

 

Tomorrow doesnt promise anything

But i hope that you forgive me for the pain it brings

I try to cope with my indiscretion

But it only brings the rain

 

The storm deep within my soul

Grants me little and nothing more

Then the misery I feel for you

And the misery that I take responsibility for

Tell me what you want from me?

tell me how to fix it and i'll be my way

I wont nothing more then to see you smile

I want nothing more then peace for a while

 

Isn't it so easy for us to forget

Isn't it something you wish you didn’t regret

But it's not so easy to walk away

Knowing that things aren't the same as yesterday

 

I knew you before

and I know you now

I knew you back then

And I loved you somehow

 

But it was so hard for me to face myself

And it was to tell you how bad I felt

About who I was and who I wanted to be

About everything that you couldn’t see

 

Why do we make things so difficult

Why do we push things away

Why do we fight through the calm of the storm

And why do we not choose to stay...

 

After everything is said and done

I now realize I’m the only one

The only one that could have made it right

And the only one that didn’t fight

 

I cry for you because you are now with me

The little pieces I stole still haunt me

I cry for us because of the damage I’ve done

And I cry for you because you refused to run

Author's Note

Ignore grammar/spelling. I put about 3 different poems I had started together into one. You may not understand what I mean when I say this is something completely different then anything I've ever written but any insights are appreciated

Reviews

[Everett DeValle]

A thoughtful poem...deeply reflective from your soul....the memories are what is left from the remnant pieces of the past. I felt the despair; the indifference; and the remorse.

[Chris]

Spelling COUNTS when YOUR word becomes another word that is real but break the mind's trail of understanding... e.g. "then" and than have different meanings.

The only grammer IN poetry is life...

and for real I tasted several different flows... and was trying to reconcile the thoughts and over-run and even tasted under-kill - where more would be better.


You have VALID thoughts and the desire to express what you have inside... and the guts to reach and try. Nice to meet you... stay you and not a clone of pomp and flowers - and circumstance.

Take care,
Chris

[Time.]

I really really love this one, I could see how you sorta,
went from one poem into the next, it flowed so well,
I loved reading it, you have an incredible talent, I never
have been able to write anything to lenthly mine are
short and sweet but I do love the long poems.
Amazing job! I can't wait to read the rest
of yours, im sure there alll equally good. :)