Rain and Rainbows

im standing here, isolated and alone
the sand between my toes is almost non-existent
the smell of nothingness is burning my senses
this place is unfamiliar without you here
you have broken me down
all that is left of me
is a lonely, open space of what used to be
i feel pressured into becoming
that one person
that someone
that one that never gives up
and never falls down
i feel beaten and torn
i feel lost
between the feelings of smiles and laughter
and between the thoughts of
letting go and moving on
why is that the you have to fall before you run
there was no crawling
it was all an illusion
you pushed me to be more then i could be
at a faster pace then i could go
you didn't hold my hand,
you drug me along
my legs are heavy as i try to lift them
just one at a time, i say to myself
just take one step, how hard could it be
difficulties in life are always looming but pushed away every day
so why is this such a struggle?
my emotions are mixed
the thickness of fear is clouding my judgment
no rain, no stars, no clouds, no sun, and no moon
the sky is lonely just as i am
it wants to cry but it cant
i tilt my head back, eyes closed
these feelings are not forever
these feelings will not be forever
i promise to myself
these feelings will pass
somewhere in the midst of the fog and the smoke
i know i find comfort
comfort in knowing it will be okay
comfort in getting to know myself again
and the comfort of believing
i feel release within me and my lungs fill with air
i can breathe again, staggered but alive
the honesty of this day is present
and i find the strength to kneel and wait

Reviews

[emona]

i read it twice it was so good and ik exactly how you feel

[ebonpinion]

Wow. Really REALLY good. I enjoyed reading it and can take a lesson from it. ^_^