Awake

I never want to fall asleep
I always want to be awake
For I fear I'll fall in too deep
And won't see that all is fake...

I wake up every morning
Trying to undertsand
Whether I should be mourning
Or if I should withstand

Dreams are my nightmares
Calling me each night
They are what I can't bare
They are my only fright

And as I close my eyes
Hearing a sad lullaby
I wish tonight I won't die
But still I say good-bye...

Crying. Falling. Dead.
I was never alive in my dreams
I can't remember what they said
Because it's never as it seems...

Thank you, God, for this day
I still realize they are fake
I want to wish them all away
I want to be awake...