alone in this city

In another city full of lights...
I look around and see thousands of faces…thousands of smiles…
as the sun fades, we enter another night..
I wonder If their smiles….
mask the same level of pain as mine…
I wonder if I’m the only one out of those thousand smiles that doesn’t have a place to call home tonight…
We pride ourselves on our individuality…
I’m dying…wishing that someone would recognize the individual in me…
A room full of people…
Yet I’m alone in this place…
I’ve become a professional of masking this pain… this rage… this despair…
I’ve mastered the response “I’m OK”….
So there’s about zero chance of you hearing the truth when you pretend to care…
The isolation is more painful than the circumstance that brought me to this place…
with nowhere to turn…
The tears burn…
The shame feels like molten lava as they stream down my face…
All I’ve ever been trying to do is find my place…
Right about the time I start to think I’ve found my spot….
Is about the same time that something comes along…
and POP.. the bubble get’s bursted…
How much pain and agony does one man have to experience before the tide begins turning…
Yearning for something to ease this burden…
It’s unbearable…
My heart used to be on my sleeve…
But now I can’t wear it because my shirt is too tattered…
Battered… beaten.. Down…
F**k out…
Even with a boulder on these shoulders…
This back will never give in or give out..
No reprieve in sight…
But to this pain, I refuse to give in….
The struggle is real…
The struggle is lonely…
This struggle will not define me…
This struggle will not control me…
You can’t keep me down…
I assure you that at any cost that I will stand up…
I will find my place or find my death…
Whichever is the first to turn up.

Reviews

[Eryn ♪]

I don't have much to say, mostly cause i find it hard to read through, but i like the lines
"My heart used to be on my sleeve…
But now I can’t wear it because my shirt is too tattered…"
Very well put.

[LostnotFound85]

Thanks. I didn't realize it, but as I've copied and pasted from word it has reformatted almost everything I've posted. This does make it difficult to read through.