Just life

October 21st I held KJ's hand today it was so soft and felt like our hands were made for each other. KJ did not seem to mind but I am not sure if that's good or bad.

 October 27th I can't stop dreaming about KJ. Every time we spend time together I feel free. I feel more like myself. I am not confused with KJ only when I am alone with myself. 

October 28th Who should I like? I mean should I even like KJ? Is it possible its all in my head? No one could love me. Could they? should they? I am just a freak. I am broken.

November 4th Oh my gosh! My life is so over! My mother grounded me for two weeks. I have not seen KJ in eight days. I miss KJ so much! I did not even do anything wrong! All I did was not get myself in trouble. Why would I tell the bullies? So I get picked on more? It's bad enough I don't need it to be worst.

 November 13th My mother forced me to tell or I would be grounded for the rest of the month. (I regret it greatly) The girls got in trouble and they know I told...  I had to tell the principle how the popular girls were smoking in the bathroom and drinking behind the school with the guys. 

November 14th I want to die!  They spray painted on my locker.... names. Very fowl names and filled my locker with the school's trash.  I have not stopped crying. I ran home right after I found the "surprise". I don't want to get out of bed ever again.