Words

I'm sorry if this is jumbled and broken. I am breaking.

I take showers to get clean.

To wash away the dirt,

The mud,

The sorrows of the day.

To get away from the people,

The words.

But every time,

There is always a mirror that shows me,

My reflection,

My past,

My pain,

The words.

Words.

Words.

Words,

They flood into my mind.

The words that control me

Tell me who to be

How to be

How to act

How to change.

These words.

Words

Words

Words

They hurt me

They hunt me

They shape me

Words hurt more than any pain I have felt

Words caused the pain

Words telling me who I was

Who I am

Who I will be

They tell me that I am

I am

I am

I am

I am not

Beautiful

Strong

Powerful

Ugly

Weak

Damaged

Scared

Every word hurts

I am beautiful

I am not beautiful

Every word goes both ways

Every word can make me panic

Give me an anxiety attack

They all hurt

I can't trust words

Words

Words

They break me

Sticks and stones may break my bones,

But words will always hurt me

Words are drilled into my mind

Shoved down my throat

Once these words are in my head,

They never leave

I am never good enough

I am my own enemy

My words are my enemy

Words

Words

Words...