I panicked, but I kissed her.

I am so awkward... its sad...

I knew I was going to kiss her.

I knew for weeks.

Tonight was the night.

I thought about it.

That was a mistake.

I called her name.

I held her.

I looked into her eyes.

I panicked.

Every thing came to me.

What if she didn’t love me.

What if her feelings for me were fake.

What if the people trying to break us up had gotten to her.

What if she didn’t want to kiss me.

What if people judged me for this.

What if this would hurt her.

What if this would hurt me.

I walked away.

I couldn’t breath.

I couldn’t think.

My heart was going a million miles an hour.

I didn’t know where I was.

There were too many people.

My friends told me it was okay.

I couldn’t listen to them.

They all told me I could do it,

But I wasn't so sure about that.

I tried again.

My friends were all watching.

This would be my first kiss,

My only first kiss I will ever have.

I wanted to show her I loved her,

But I was panicking so much.

She was now scared,

Thinking she had done something wrong.

I couldn’t tell her she didn’t.

So they stepped in and told her it was all okay.

She turned around,

Still scared.

I looked at her.

She was flawless,

How could she want someone like me?

The thoughts came back.

My friend grabbed me.

She held me by my face.

She told me everything would be okay.

She pushed me towards the girl.

I tapped her shoulder.

It was now or never.

I looked at her.

She looked at me.

Before any thoughts come back,

I went for it.

It was a small peck,

But it was a kiss.

My first kiss.

I didn’t want to see her reaction.

I just hugged her,

Not wanting to see the thoughts on her face.

She was frozen.

I ran.

They grabbed me.

My heart wouldn’t slow down.

All the thoughts came flooding back.

Everything was in slow motion.

She was there in front of me.

I started shaking.

My friend told me to breath.

I couldn’t.

I looked at her.

She looked at me.

I told her I was sorry that it was so awkward.

She told me everything was okay.

Then she told me to come over to her.

She kissed me.

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[M.E.Lyle]

Sometimes you just have to go for it. Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead!
I remember those days, I was scared to death, almost paralized. Loved your poem.