Worse

It was wrong of me to love you.
It was so unfair of me.
How could I do that to myself?

I should never have let you in.
Should never have shown you my favorite places.
Never have told you I loved you more.

Or that I wanted you and only you.
I definitely shouldn't have let myself be vulnerable.
I shouldn't have pointed out all my weak spots and then trusted you to protect them.

You were shady from the start.

It was wrong of me to love you.

But I can forgive myself for the mistakes I made.
The love blindness I lived with.
For the trust I gave so freely.

The real tragedy would be letting you take anymore from me.
I'm reclaiming myself.
You don't get anything else.

Not my thoughts.
My time.
My love.

I'm also taking back my trust in others.
My ability to let myself be loved.
To believe in the goodness of those around me.

The exceptions to your rule.

I am returning to the place where I was truly happy with myself.

So.
I hope you are happy with her.
I hope you have 3 beautiful babies, and I hope your family loves her.
I hope you treat each other well.
I hope she loves Star Wars. And Peanut Butter.
I hope she is a good Catholic girl, but with the loose morals you prefer.

And I'll keep saying that until I mean it.

Because it was wrong of me to love you.
But it would be worse if I let loving you, make me stop loving myself.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Honest and good emotions expressed in the poetry.
"Because it was wrong of me to love you.
But it would be worse if I let loving you, make me stop loving myself."
Above line is true wisdom. Can't allow sadness to steal our joy. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Alexis]

Hey Rosey! Sorry for the late reply. I think that you are a talented poet! The poem was nice. Any chance it's based on personal experience? If you're not in college already, I advise you to study English as a major and Writing as a minor. It will help you to grow as a poet.