eclipse of a perfectly good heart

an honest poem about how i felt through this mistake i made and how much it hurts, but to put that in words. Thank you.

I’ve got word vomit rising to the edge of my tongue

So much to say and plea to you about

These seconds on the phone just won’t satisfy

I’ve got the guts in my stomach pushing against the wall

Expanding to the point of explosion

 

Your tone have become so cold

You’ve got me feeling distant, untouched

I try to explain but you deny and push me off

I’ve been trying to confess I..

We both speak at the same time

And my confidence crawls back in its shell

 

Just let me say I can’t stand this loneness

You’ve got me all tied up

With your visage flying through my hollowed mind

I’ve got my playlist full of sad love songs

Lying by my side

 

And I know I hurt you

So deep, I got a grown man crying through the night

So lone, you’d wish we had never met

I wanna spill my thoughts to you

Wishing you’d believe me

But my lies have cut you off

And your heart is no longer with me

My heart aches trying to explain

As I tear up, on this phone

 

I want us to just kiss and make up

But I could never change the way you think

And how much I’ve done you wrong

All the times I’ve left you alone

But you got me drowning in our memories

Got me dying to have you back

 

The phone stayed silent

You hardly say one word

The atmosphere is frozen in this moment

I try not to let you hear my shiver and cry

Knowing you wouldn't take me back once again

But I wish I could beg you to stay

And take back this suffering

I don't want to feel this way

I’ve said I’m sorry

I can’t see what’s In front of me

But I know I’m sorry

With all my heart

Let the karma of those lies bounce back to me

I’m so sorry..

 

 

 

Author's Note

I'm not trying to be corny or intentionaly say anything in this poem, but creating words out of exactly how you feel during that moment can be so diffcult, having to decide what is it exactly that you felt. hope some can relate. Thank You.

Reviews

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Powerful read, i know what you are going through.

[Black-Draped]

i like this it's really deep!