What am I doing here

Don't know what I'm doing here.

Can't help but to shed a tear.

All I want is to have her near.

That aint happenin and that's all that's clear.

 

And nothing left to calm me down.

I'm writing to the beat of my hearts pound.

In my emotions I'm going round and round.

But in a few days I will leave this town.

 

Why should I crawl back into bed.

I should just get comfortable being alone instead.

Its one of the biggest things that I dread.

Let's face it, hit this nail on its head.

 

I love her and I can't resist.

Wanting her among this chaos, a mist.

Do I give in, f**k all this? I

 cant seem to help but reach out for her wrist.

 

With just my words I am stuck.

Don't matter if I side step or duck.

seem to always get into muck.

Just looks like I aint got no luck.

 

I can't explain to her what I'm feeling.

She tells me that alone I don't have to be dealing,

but I feel like a fish on her hook and she keeps reeling.

From this it will take a while to start healing.

 

But why do I keep expecting the worst?

not all my relationships are bound to be cursed.

Maybe a good ending this will be a first.

But I keep seeing this laid out in a hearse.