A Christmas Poem

Sitting by the window

Watching how everyone is full of happiness

But not me

I try to feel happy

But it's worthless

I feel sad 

And I try everything to keep myself happy

But it seems as nothing helps

My heart is really sentimental

remembering everything that happened

And I can't seem to make my mind go the right way

I can't acept what happened

I'm still waiting for the christmas joy to get me

But I think it will not come this year

Neither nex year...

Until I'm back with them

I try to put everything aside

nothing seems to help

And I keep myself

strugeling to be happy in this joyful day

And the tears burst into my eyes

Happiness and sadness

I feel this emotions at same time

Although I feel sad

I know someday we'll be together

Joking and playing games on this day

The feeling of numbness beginning to make it's way

To my very core

And although I try to be happy

I can't

And at the same time I can't feel bad

I don't even know what is making my ship

To not sink

Maybe,

Maybe it's hope

Hope that someday on this day I will be with them

Opening presents, Joking around and eating with them

That day will be glorius

But for now

I'll to play the waiting game

Until God helps 

To find my way

Again to them

For now, I'll wait

And try to be happy

Reviews

[Jimmy Yetts]

Not sure you made clear who "them" is--or, for that matter, what happened to them, Lizardo; though, you've strongly conveyed "they" are loved ones.
In any event, this piece has emotional impact.
Keep writing, young poet!

[Lizardo]

Thank you so much Frankie! I really appreciete it and yeah, they are my loved ones

[MsJewel]

I can feel the emotion in your words - sad, yes...but there is hope here too.
You have touched my heart with your beautiful poem.

:) Julie

[Lizardo]

Thank you so much Julie, I really appreciete it! :)