Today

Today is like any other day
I'm so blank right now, I can't even think.
It feels like every night I still need a drink.
I look at this empty page, waiting for the right words to come across my mind.
It seems like time is just flying by with ever tear I cry.
Today I saw my grandmother break down and say "I try."
Almost shattered my heart in two, she tries every day to stay true.
Today our car got repossessed, every time something happens I begin to care less and less.
Finances are so far out of reach from us, everything that's ever happened to me makes it hard to trust.
Today I tried to call my mother, it feels like i am just another to her.
It's been about 8 days since I've heard from her last, I feel like i am just another part of her past.
Today I thought about my ex girlfriends, I wanted them all to last.
They all left so fast, I guess that's why memories are called the past.
In contrast, I don't even crave a relationship anymore.
I'm not nearly brave enough to bare the pain anymore.
My hearts been stained, it feels like it's already been drained.
Today I cannot even begin to tell you how much I wanted to die.
It would be a lie if i said I wouldn't be happier being dead.
These are just a few of the dark thoughts that travel through my mind every time.
Today I looked at my grandmother crying, and saw the reason why I am still alive.
It would be a crime to leave the only person who has ever thought twice about me.
You couldn't put a price on her genuine affection, all she wants is my attention.
Her love keeps my spirit up, she is so unbelievably tough.
She drives me crazy, she can even be a tad bit lazy.
Yet she still stays by my side.
Today I realized that the only person who has never given up on me was her,
Today I found another reason why I should continue to be alive.

Reviews

[Simon Welsh]

I like it. Some emotional impact.

[Coyote Poetry]

Take the bad days for us to learn who is important.
"Today I start with
Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish..."
The story led to a very good ending. We learn we can do more and life will be okay with the good people near. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote