This is my goodbye to you.

A closure letter

This is my goodbye to you,

You say it isn't true.

"I could make you fall back in love with me if I wanted you to."

I remember those words so clear,

and I bet you can't stand to hear 

"whoever said I even wanted you?"

Although I will admit, you had me in quite a fit.

I couldn't even sit without thinking of you,

Even with every lie you told me

I never even questioned you,

even when you wanted a boyfriend too.

I never would have knew,

I didn't even have a clue,

& when I found out it made me see what was really inside of you.

I wish i would have seen it right away,

I wish I could have pushed you away.

Instead I forgave you, and let you keep him too.

I  just wanted to fill that emptiness inside of you,

I wanted to kill that bitter side of you.

It couldn't hide for to long, even when you were wrong, you were my own special song.

even with every tear you made me shed, 

I just wanted to be with you instead.

You walked all over my heart, 

even from the very start,

I knew what was going on.

I tried to force us to work, 

I never would have been able to cuss at you like he would.

I did everything i could to keep you, 

guess it just wasn't enough.

You lead me on like such a fool, 

It was like i was just a tool to you.

I remember just leaving the hospital again and finding out you were pregnant,

That was when I tried to end it.

I thought dying was better than being without you, But i was so blinded, I didn't know what to do.

I just wanted your love, I chased it so much.

I craved your touch, even though you wouldn't give me much.

Even with the circumstances such as this, That one kiss from you when we were young is all I can taste on my tongue.

It stung so bad when I put your initials on my arm, so much self harm in so little time, and what was my crime?

Loving you.

And just for that I received a life time sentence,

I'll never be able to forget you.

Although I cannot completely forget you, 

I can say goodbye to you,

I lay our memories down in the ground,

six feet under

Back where I buried my care for you.

You're nothing else but a memory, just part of my past.

and even though I know you're right behind me,

tempting me with 

"we can still make it last."

I'm running away fast, I know better than that.

For so many years I took your crap,

 falling into so many traps,

I can finally say goodbye,

Nice try,

I finally realize everything you said was a lie,

It's crazy how things have turned, 

now it is you begging for my attention.

Last time I checked i didn't have the time to give you a reply,

I can try for me now, instead of we.

I can see so clearly now, 

all I can say to you is 

"I'm better now."

Reviews

[Joan Probst]

This is a perfect depiction of a woman/man thinking they can fix someone but instead getting hurt. Great poem!! Keep it going!