I hate you, I love you... I miss you.

You haunt my dreams

I wake up at night crying

Because I still love you

And I miss you

I miss your smile

And your adorable laugh

I miss your dumb jokes

And your warm hugs

And the feeling of your lips on mine

I loved you

And I thought you loved me

But it wasn’t enough…

I wasn’t enough.

Now I see you

Walking around with another girl

Your arm around her

Giving her the hugs, you gave me

And laughing with her

Like you used to do with me

My heart aches for your love

And your touch.

“you need to move on”

They tell me

Like it’s so easy

I would love to move on.

But I can’t.

I loved you too much to just move on.

But you did it so easily

I gave you all I had and more.

But I guess I wasn’t enough.

And I’m sorry.

But I will always love you.

And I will always hate you.

So, sorry.

That I believed you.

I believed you when you said you’d never leave.

That this would be forever.

But now, you don’t look at me,

Or talk to me,

And I can’t take it anymore.

I don’t know what to do with this anger.

And this sadness.

And the empty hole in my heart,

Where you used to live.

I need someone to fill it.

But it’s hard to let someone in once you’ve been hurt so much.

But I’ll try.

I’ll try to move on from you.

But I will always care about you.

Even if you don’t care about me.

I’m sorry.