When is Point B

The reason most of us write

Or return to writing after a really long time 

is because we have something to say

I don't know the figure for it

But usually its because we can't handle something

And we go and spill out our thoughts

And at the moment

its word vomit

For me, i don't think I'm good enough

I know i'm not strong enough

In many ways

To many people

I can describe the way little worries accumulate

I can tell you that whenever i think  about how useless i can be

how different i am

knots my stomach

clenches my throat

and closes my mind

and i cry

at that moment

its hard to believe anything else is true

And it stays

What are you suppose to do to get there

To reach point b

Do i need to suffer the same thing

over and over again till i can say

its not suffering and i'm okay

and how can you talk to someone

when the reason your hurt

is because you yourself couldn't handle it alone

And the little worries, the little digs

are from other people

people closest to you

not your friends but closer than that

How do reach point B

when everything repeats