GreyA Story by Mrs ManiaI wrote this short story, "Grey", on July 9, 2016.~Grey~ By: Paige Taylor Silence is inevitable.
Six feet under all their words and the hurt, I finally lay peacefully. Our
distant dreams were as loud and as bothersome as a demon screaming in my ears
as if I could hear. As if I could hear anything besides the weeping wagers I
had placed on my soul in exchange for a hand worth holding and a heart worth
breaking. But all just seemed to be lost. Deep in the depths of my confined
heart, I knew it would never last. He was everything I could have ever dreamt
and more. But I was just all too hollow and much too broken to speak, to say
the words that had always needed to be said, that “without him, I was better off
dead.” Depression transitioned
its way into my mind leaving me thoughtless and torn. I begged and pleaded with
the monster in my mind that if I could just get through this, I would somehow
find a way to make everything okay again. But even I knew that these were just
empty promises. Somehow every word I had ever spoken became just a mere design
of a barrier placed upon wallpaper and torn down just as fast. Our entire relationship
was spread across a paper sheet, and when he clenched his fist, I knew that we
had crumbled. What we had been, what we once were, it was never going to be
perfect again. As I looked out the window and faced the shadows, the black
figures danced upon my window sill and though I could not hear a single thing,
they all seemed to be singing and cheering happily as though there were still a
glimmer of beauty in this dead end world. That is, when I noticed that these
were not the only figures enjoying the wretchedness of life. There was another
standing in solitude by an old willow tree. This figure was all gray and stood still as stone. Just when I was beginning to think that it was yet another
figment of my imagination, it reached out its hand to me and for a moment, I
swear I had even seen it blink. I slowly reached out my hand and pressed it
against the window. The figure looked at me with sad, sorrowful eyes and just
when I thought this image could not get any more morbid, the figure’s skin began
to droop. Its eyes began to turn into a dark shade of black, and they began to
melt right out of the socket. I jerked my hand away with a start and the entire
window turned black. I could no longer see what was on the other side. No
sooner then I took a step back, the entire glass plate shattered. I was hit
with shards of painful regrets of loss and sorrow; left with nothing but the
broken pieces of what was once my window. Rain lashed my face like icy tears, and I sank to the floor. My mouth widened into a screaming O, but no noise could crawl from my strangled throat. I was drowning in those tiny raindrops, unable to breathe, unable to make a sound. I existed there for several lifetimes, until I forgot my purpose, my beliefs, and even my name. My depression was a state of limbo more painful than life and more permanent than death. The rest of my days were spent as a recluse, nothing to gain and nothing left to lose. Curled up in a ball on my own basement floor, singing in sorrow and screaming in solitude; I was in constant agony for the long lasting tomorrow. I could die here today without one last goodbye; I could leave here tonight and all would know why. Why? What good would it do? My body could lie six feet under with you, but my soul will be burning, while yours will be smiling. And as I lay dying, his is the only voice that I hear, the only one that is crying. If I were to fall apart, for better or for worse, tell me that no one else would care and the light will soon rid me of this curse. I could feel my heartache
from the past as if it were happening in the present. A bottom of a bottle, so
shallow, so empty. The soft spot that was once in my heart, is now gone
completely. I am counting my pills in two’s and in three’s, for I have yet to
find a friend as great as these. Or so I thought. But now my sorrow, is all
that I brought. For this drunkenness brings nothing but emptiness, and an
overdose will only leave me in a state of comatose. A high only gives me a mere
excuse to remain at an all-time low. Just like the most beautiful angel, who
had fallen down below. Then suddenly it came to my realization, that diamonds do in fact come from coal. How is
it that something so beautiful can erupt from something so dull? Could it be
that the most damaged of minds can tell the most beautiful of stories? Or could
it be that a broken heart can in fact mend all that is lost? Oh how I must loathe
these winter months, for my mind seems to continuously wander. These thoughts
of terror and dread, are all that I seem to ponder. I patiently wait for
moments of terrorizing silence, so that my desolate screams may be heard and my
voice alone will be made to suffer alone in agonizing silence. Soon it will be
true, that all of my whispers will thus fade to echoes in destitute intervals,
daunted by whom or rather what, is humanly immortal. © 2020 Mrs Mania |
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Added on September 11, 2017 Last Updated on April 21, 2020 AuthorMrs ManiaRoanoke, VAAboutHi there! As far as genres go, my preference leans more towards short stories and poetry. I tend to really appreciate works that are both thought-provoking and inspiring. My favorite writings tend to.. more..Writing
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