Grief No Relief

Stages of grief, no relief, in need of an escape ladder.

I write to fill the spaces

In words I find solace

And peace of mind

 

What is this strong-hold

That won’t let go of me

More painful than pulling apart super glue

 

Shock, denial, realization, doubt…insanity

I can’t recall the formal stages of grief

But I’m still being circled amongst them all

 

Wouldn’t just “getting over it” be easier?

This one I cannot put down

 

The lingering thought penetration inescapable

The embers could spark to full flame at any moment

 

(I must remember to purchase that emergency escape ladder)

 

I could just let go

Fall far and hard

And just take the pain

 

What could I possibly fear?

Fear of loss, hope, love, chance…dying, with regret?

 

But what purpose does holding this serve me now?

 

No control

Backslide

Continued denial

I don’t know how to extricate (extinguish) you!

I don’t want to

This is getting ridiculous

How long can this go on…forever I fear

Stages of grief

No relief

 

The escape ladder…superfluous

Forgetting that I can fly

Back to my knees, weak

Yet, continually recharged

 

 

Little Mouse

January 14, 2008

Reviews

[*^*my*beautiful*zelda*l..]

"Wouldn't just "getting over it" be easier?"
Gosh, it would be easier! But no, we have to go through the miserable stages of grief-- I HATE GRIEF! X(
But anyway....
This poem totally reminds me of the whole "writing loss" incident on this site. GOSH I HATED THAT! but thankfully, I was able to recover most of my writing. The only peice of writing I lost forever is "Eight... not so great" Ironically that's the one poem I dont mind getting rid of cuz it wasnt all that great in the first place :) Im so glad I got all my stories back though-- they took the longest to conger up ;)

Anyway, back to your poem. You always appear to freewrite in all your poems. Sure, they dont always rhyme, and the amount of lines in each stanza varies alot, but it shows what kind of carefree writer you are. heehee, I really enjoy the way you write. It's like spoken word, and has hardly any rhythm. well, I like rhythm, but whatever. I also like the way you write cuz it reminds me of the way I speak. Saying sentences that come to mind, saying anything that comes to mind, but still makes sense, exclamations!!! :D lol good write!