Spiritual Divorce Part One

How does one reconcile divorce with religious beliefs?

God, I’m tired of my rambling prayer to you
I go on and on and on
I know I need to leave
But the bible tells me no
And he won’t go!

Moses said we could divorce
Due to the hardness of our heart
1st Corinthians states the believer cannot leave
Lest they may save the other’s soul
But if the unbeliever wants to go
It is then you can let them go

And yes, the vows, I remember
Till death do us part
But what if we are slowly killing each other
Yes, with the hardness of our hearts

Well…

Your words from long ago
You knew the world would change
You live in me in this present day
And I believe what you have to say

Ramblings unanswered
I prayed one simple prayer:
“God, you need to make this clear…
Give me something in writing tomorrow! Amen.”

The next day a loaned book returned to me
That I was certain would be gone to this day
“Spiritual” preceding “Divorce” by the author Debbie Ford
Odd title, you wouldn’t think it so
Yet great words of wisdom she shares
I remembered as I drove home

I glanced at the book on the passenger seat
It was then I remembered my prayer
I had received something in writing
And it was the very next day

I finally left and in shines continued clarity
Yet still in spiritual limbo
Not prepared to decree the big fat ugly D!
Just for now, I’m waiting for you or him to somehow set me free.

 

Little Mouse

October 14, 2007

Reviews

[Blue Bard]

A rarity here, a theological piece that lives in tension. It is clear that there is a strong faith underlying this, but not a blind faith. All of us who take these things seriously feel this same tension between what is said and what is right. There are no easy solution, just decisions. You make your choice based on your most honest interpretation and hope for the best. I love the ultimatum, something in writing. The irony is that the writing we have (biblical) only clouds the issue sometimes. This is a thought provoking poem.

[Solst Rapture]

I couldn't wait and I'm very glad I couldn't as this makes me wonder how on earth I can impress you, if thats the right word. This is so aptly illustrating something I have struggled with for a long time but the way you have produced it is with a clarity that I didn't manage. Either way, you have and I thoroughly enjoyed the poetic muse. I think the way you write is with a confidence and honesty that any potential or established writer would admire. You obviously have a very soulful and loving mind. I hope you don't mind me saying so.

To elaborate on the subject a little; I have often been very torn by the scriptures and felt do guilty and lost for needing proof. I couldn't for the life of me feel the faith that so many people preached about. Some people i have met don't preach and just love, which I think is far more powerful, but i know they still have this spiritual belief, faith and commitment, which is great but separated me that little bit further. I now believe that love and acceptance could possibly be enough and that, apparently, the way I think, talk, write and live, is quite spiritual, which makes me feel moderately happy and among great people. So, this has filled me with more than i can do justice right here, but thank you for writing it and i hope you feel proud. I imagine there can always be something else dominating a writer when they read their reviews so I make a point of saying what i really think, in all its glory. This is the stuff of more than just amateur writers, in my opinion.

Take care and you are much appreciated.

[__Flaw__]

Something very unique; the way divorce and God's appraisal have been stiched together...i thought it was kinda funny in the beginning, but then the tone continued in it's wave stream, and well...not very funny when u realise how hard it is to just get that Nod from God, and feel satisfied in your own actions in the end.

Great write...recommended by Celtic Cat :)))))

[~Wandering Soul~]

this is wonderfully writen
great work i luved it
xoxo

[M Lamont]

You've told me this story and what a perfect way to capture it and share it with others. You need to be careful with asking God for signs...he gives them but sometimes it is hard to act on them.

[Emily B]

You will find your way. The words will come. The fog will dissipate. Good luck on your journey.

[R J Askew]

interesting read...in truth i do not believe in god and so religiosity is a total mystery to me. good look with the decision making.

[avgogh]

Celtic Cat sent this poem to me. You really helped me with some of my own baggage. Thank you. I consider myself a spiritual person. There are many contradictions in the Bible and within religious groups, but I feel comfortable in my beliefs. I never thought I would get divorced, but I'm glad it happened. Trying to stick it out doesn't always work and isn't healthy for the one who went into the marriage with good intentions. This poem is like a cold drink of water on an extremely hot day. Thanks again and I hope the best for you.

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

What a difficult write if this is a true story and one many should read as I know so many of us have struggled with these same situations. Well told. Thank you so much for sharing.
Light,
Siddartha

[desertraven]

I like that you have choosen a different content than the norm. Well penned.
Sandra♥

[Jaclyn]

Hrm....I'm not a big fan of religious poems or writing with religious elements, but the line about divorce papers authored by Debbie...that was very clever. Not clever like witty or anything mean like that...it was a very great way to say that you were served with divorce papers without saying it. This IS a thoughtful poem, and I can relate to the searching for faith, the non-believing, and I can definitely relate to the divorce topics. I hope you get some answers for yourself. :)