Alonzo didn't talk to me and barely looked at me after the incident the other night. I guess he was ashamed that he had slept with me. I know what we did was wrong, but he could at least acknowledge that I exsisted, tell me I wasn't a mistake. I laid on my bed and wondered what would have happened if Alonzo and I had met under different circumstances. If I wasn't prentending to be someone else and I wasn't his brothers bride to be. We would have been happy, I think. We would have our arguments but our passion and desire for one another would make up for that. I did love Anthony though, very much but I realized just then that I loved Alonzo as well. But my love for Alonzo was different somehow, like there was more fire. Which was probably due to Alonzo's fiery personality. I've seen Anthony argue with no one and get upset at nothing. On the other hand I've seen Alonzo get upset at various things, countless times. Why was I more attracted to the argumentative, hot tempered one out of the two? .....