poisoned

i recently went on vacation and got sun poisoning. the worse pain of my life, but — that’s all this is

shivers like a thousand
needles pricking my skin,
soft breaths so heavy that
my spine is ripped apart;
cerise dermis sliced open,
blades run down my thighs,,
movements �"
there is no “too quick”
“too slow”
it’s all bad.
i am trapped here.
every waking moment brings
its own unique agony.
i cannot ease any
form of the ailing
for i’m freezing while
my body remains ablaze

i cannot sit without
laying invisible knives beneath me
i cannot stand without
feeling my bones harden and lock
i cannot walk
unless i am balanced against
a being which is actually alive
and even then
i am screamed at
from within
because everything and
nothing hurts
i cannot see
i cannot feel
i cannot sleep
i cannot be touched
i cannot be healed
i cannot retreat.
rather, i am forced
to exist through the misery
of a demon’s lair inside me
until the sun has decided
it needs a new body
to feast upon.
thus i have received
the curse of vampires
without any of the benefits
or the voids which have
become of their hearts.