So i wait

So, I wait,
like I usually wait,
starring at your eyes,
being unruffled,
for the moment,that,
you open your eyes,
and ask me to stay,
for the day, for years, and beyond,
suddenly, from an unconscious life.
Ah!I must be dreaming again, it can only be a dream.
I am used to waiting
I am used to patience.
Yet, the overgrown shadow,
over your mass,
makes me stale
and I mumble again.
"Cynical woman", You shout.
And. I walk back to my lover,
packing my rug and myself.
On his arms,
I lie,
calm and silent
like the ocean pulled inward;
whose essence is an imaginary cult.
Sometimes, I love you much.
sometimes, crowded with hatred.
Forget you, at other times.
Yet, when I try to imagine your smile,
I see a face curved, and teeth in between
-A face over a face-
it makes me weasel !
'I miss everything, don't I ?'
And,I wait , 

like I usually wait,
to be selfish, to be me.

Reviews

[the_stoic]

the ending words said it all .. we do wait .. wait to turn ourselves selfish .. to no longer love for the one who no longer is ours .. yet something inside keeps us going with a hope that maybe ... i can relate so closely with this write ... just one thing - i wonder if it should be "staring" instead of "starring"

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

Awe this is a really good piece. I like it a lot. Thanks for sharing.

[JENY]

Nice piece of writing…
Love ... tests our patience too….

[indu]

lol.. even i hate waiting..it's so hard to wait .. patience must be an art..hmm

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. i hate waiting ... and i sometimes think the universe makes me wait for eben only because i hate waiting ... to balance me out ... this is beautifully written ... i think it's the best i've read of you so far ...

[Ed Hart]

the words are carved out of your heart, like marble, waiting