This is all i know

It is as clear to me
as on a freezing day
During the night
Then as day seeps in
Your features are as
bliss to me
So as I play with
silence like it's a
toy
Thinking
This life is elusive
to everything
Not just this

So I watch
Then silently leave
And pray you wake up

Without  feeling
loss
The loss of me

It's not easy
A constant struggle
it seems
But there lingers
A constant hope in
me
That one day I'll be
worth it
Worth the pain
Of you giving up
Her

I have always loved
you this way
A shadow forever on
your face
It's an extra
necessity
It's the only way
We have known us
Cramming all three
of us in one life
Curling around
square corners
However
uncomfortable it
gets

I learnt to share
you
She's laughs at this
Looks at me
Pulls back her lips
Revealing razor
sharp teeth
Embedding them in
your neck
Sucking you dry
Spreading her venom
through your veins

She has you when
sleeping
She'll have you when
you die

There is a sadness
to my life
A tree trying to
grow behind a larger
tree
Never getting enough
light

Some days are spent
holding us together
Pulling you back
Some days are spent
dreaming
Of better days

Without depression
Named her