I love you enough

I love you enough

I won a battle
I came out on top
Your be happy to hear this
Maybe even jealous
I tried to write the perfect
poem
I couldn't
They never quite did you
justice
So I burned all of them
They didn't make me shiver
The perfect poem for you
should be read as a whisper
Hummed as a song
As I won our battle
I came out on top
I won our battle
And your gone

In the woods by our home
In May bluebells carpet the ground
Violet, blue, pink
Astounding
This is where we lay
Blowing wishes up through the
trees
As we said how much we loved each other

After a long life
Children
Grandchildren
We'd stroll along the beach
holding hands
Our dog would still be alive
We'd have enough money to
make him live forever
He'd bark at our heels
Not throwing his stick quite fast
enough
His poor little docked tail
wagging
Playing with the waves

At Christmas our house filled
with our family
Generations of our life
Exceedingly happy
We'd do route 66
Take years if we wanted
Kiss all the time
As we're still in love, not just
loving
Buy a Jacuzzi
Skinny dip at 80

Too early, so young
Life destroyed you
This is what our love had
amounted to

The perfect poem still hasn't
surfaced
Even though I live through the
solace
There is no beautiful words for it
It doesn't rhyme
It is no sonnet

It's simply this

That night we stared at the
stars
I told you I loved you enough
I'd be happy for you to go first
you said i can go forward
you would stay 
not wanting me to feel life's
decay

I said your going first, this
battle was mine til the last
I'd be left with life's
uncertainties
The damp in my heart would
last
My remaining days
I would suffer impeccable
sadness
Loss being relentless
I love you enough
To stand the destitute days
Cold nights anxiety makes
Emptiness of loneliness
I love you enough for you to
never feel this
I love you enough
for you to die first
This is what my love amounted
to
 I love you enough to be the
last
I love you enough