You Did Love Me Then

So I trickled out if
your life
As water through a
spring
Smoothing over the
points and rocks
alone
An adventure
I didn't give you
another thought
You were irrelevant
to me
I told myself this
religiously
Just someone I used
to know
Until now that is
Now I've done
everything I wanted
Traveled the world
Now your everything
I need
Standing in front of
me
Funny how life turns
the tables so easily

Do you remember how
it used to be with us
Yes, we used to be In love
Is that what you
call it
I remember it
differently
I remember never
knowing

So I ask a question
that's lingered
forever
Would I of been your
wife if I'd stayed
Yes
this is
all you need to say
The bitter weathers
beating at your
cheeks
The air now almost
too cold to breath
Leaves crisp
underfoot
This revelation will
destroy me yet

I'm just passing
through I say
Trying to hide the
injustice
Of watching you play
with your wedding
ring
I'm just passing
through

This Certain clarity
Is Soul destroying
My island Carved out
of the consequences
of my decisions
Starts shacking
I feel it swaying, I
see it starts
sinking
I was safe here
until this evening
The birds start
flying
The fish swim deep
Nature scarpers
emotions erupting

My island was
tropical once
Now it's an iceberg

The revelation of
this truth
Ignites our old
youth
My lake starts
rippling, from
indecisions
Confusion Settling
in
As you did love me
in the end

I remember  the
enormity of the
hoping
Not knowing Was soul
splitting
It was easier to
leave you than not
knowing
So I went traveling
Stumbling until i
got used to the
terrain

We were children
One tiny decision
changed everything
I started mapping
out my future
Carving you out of
the paper island

We were so young
Brought up on summer
sun
Dry grass under foot
The way it always
got
Warm nights you no
longer get
the world was a
different place then
than it is

All that was certain
your not loving me
Your not caring
Scared of saying
The simplest
sentance
Has brought us to
this moment
All i was sure of
Now means nothing

I'm just passing
through
I say
After all its
Christmas
Ill be gone by new
year
You can go back to
pretending your wife
is the love of your
life
I don't say this
aloud
I was nothing

I'm just passing
through I say
As nothing can be
changed