call it target panic (the difference between the brain and the mind)

feel your blood pressure rising
feel your whole body sweating
feel that adrenaline pumping
feel one million different things. . .
      all at the same time

(it's f*****g maddening)

when your eyes can see
but your brain disagrees,

when your body does feel

but your brain has for you,

       other plans

you will act irrationally 

with thoughts unpredictable 

into actions unreasonable. . .

call it 'panic instinctual'

when your brain disagrees
with what your body does feel
the rational becomes peripheral
your thoughts become sloppy
your actions become irrational 

as the brain floods with adrenaline

and then. . . 

more 'panic instinctual'
like a self reinforced ritual
into a circle of more panic inevitable 

dancing in a loop
to the sound of the same song
on repeat. . . on repeat

from your very own choir of anxiety
(without lyrics)

internally, it roils 

. . .it overwhelms you. . .
and every other part of you
becomes broken, unreasoned

reactionary, viciously 

unsound

when your brain adapts to this
and gets very, very good at this

absurd things replace

the better parts you had in place

and after every happening
after every increase in intensity
in calamity. . .

it gets easier and easier

to replace the better

with the nutter
until the very end 

when it stops

forever 

Author's Note

Reviews

[The dark Hydra]

Daddy the bad men are picking on me again. Stop them

[The dark Hydra]

Daddy hold me please it is scary down here.

[Davidgeo]

You're an idiot.

[The dark Hydra]

Why daddy, do you not like me anymore?