That Poor Mirror

how do i get different creatures

to unabashadly show me their features

without stressful phrases or words that "play you"

and your emotive self?

intensely

(I come)

in an obfuscating way. . .

from an attitude born of tragedy

secrets, and scorched earth

(i respect the oxford comma)

this has blinded me

so how the f**k am i to see the world

"intelligently"

if i can't even see myself

"normally"

from the strangers within her

from anybody else

and the reasons we 'share'

or the pathology that drives us

so maybe nothing is fair

         for a living

it's how profit's are made

......

for a living

i am strange to me

some unwanted step child

i don't fully understand

another different creature

i can not fully see

at least, not truthfully

so, how hypocritical of me

obviously this an autobiography

disjointed and stupid

(it seems about right)

so maybe i talk to myself too much

as an exercise

it does complete me

and then leaves me

              at the borderline

with me, myself and all the self-abandoned

  welcome to nothing

and no one

welcome to self loathing

and the real world

(it's hard to ask yourself questions)