Abandonment Complexion

A Poem by Davidgeo

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i've recently been in love with something i can never have
and it seems like decades have passed
since just the other day when i hurt her
to free her of that thing we could never share
(properly)

a something so perfect
in retrospect... it felt like a sorta fairy tale
(something unreal)

sadly it seems we were never meant for that
so we tell each other...
so i tell myself
(so i sabotage)

but dearly in my memory
i keep her close

like a fantasy

buried in the lovely flesh
i remember her
(a lover's fairy tale)
a secret nobody knows

it was just yesterday
alone in my dark
with the lights all the way on
i was picking scabs
remembering the good pain
a practice i've perfected
to take the place of a feeling
i'm not allowed to have

so i dream instead
with dried blood under my finger nails

from a real world under covers
i weep
with the lights off
dreaming alone, of you
of me
coming inside
to greet you in the most intimate way
as two become one

a sorta fairy tale
a sorta fantasy

something just enough

it was almost real
we could almost taste it
it almost made sense