Narcissistic Altruistic

....The divide between altruism and egoism... both are flawed and infect one another. try ethical utilitarianism sometime... the world doesn't need another coffee shop mother theresa.

when buying an ideology from your couch

be sure you are able to quote your "knowledge" confidently

and without really knowing

utilize your group thought social commodities wisely

like your views on poverty, for example

publicly giving, showing you care for the sake of perception

what is that doing if not trying

to hide something offensive, to hate ourselves less,

to be seen as something more; something more wonderful

in front of friends in front of neighbors

like checkout line charity

or repetitive rambling 

of your favorite talking head's talking points

or that dumb a*s santa with the ringing bell

like a human pop up ad taking from you

merely pennies on the dollar

but more importantly

almost zero seconds on the minute

helping in abstract

showing you 'care'

without really caring

best of both worlds

what do people really want?

goodness intrinsic or goodness perceived?

usually the latter

without any heavy lifting, affect a healthy perception of goodness?

yeah... sounds more likely to me

to believe that perception

plastic lining yourself

with coffee shop goodness

you give a little

without touching those poor disgusting losers

without really knowing too much more

just enough to seem like so much more

to your neighbor, to yourself

to the "helpless" you feel you a hero to

this is masturbation charity

"helping" from a bubble

those destitution hobbyists

changing absolutely nothing

polluting with bullshit through a shell of an effort

proudly shopping the catastrophe market

for feel good feelings, to inflate a bullshit ego

crowdfunding a cloak

to hide the shame with a deeper lie, with window dressing

pennies are at best, self serving; the narcissist altruistic

at worst, a insidious protector-victim relationship

superficial helpers getting exploited by marketing departments (irony or karma?)

they know what the fakers will do

with the knowledge they can keep a percentage

as well as pay themselves with "good will"

hello altruistic consumer!

ready for some

heavy pitying of pre labeled individuals like a pack of sick pets

for only pennies on the dollar

from your safe space do this with a heart full of bullshit

pretending you're fighting

for the disempowered, those waiting for death in the cold

alone with your garbage, your bullshit 

just as long as it seems like it helps

yourself

look like a helper

we can call it whatever we please

it's still bullshit whatever label we want to put on it

what keeps them awake at night is not the man freezing in the street

it never was

the difference is subtle

"what can I do to help the world?"

"what can be done to help the world?"

the difference is real

　

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