If I could go back

heart shattered... again

Thinking back on all that has happened this week... I've come to this conclusion.

If I could go back to the day that I met you. The day that you came into my life. The day I fell in love with you on sight... I would turn around and never look back. I'd keep in mind the heartbreak and the hurt that your face, body, words, and emotions would do to me and I would walk away. And I promise you this... I would not look back.

If I could go back to the day I kissed you for the first time. The day that you pulled me in and whispered "Don't worry, you're mine" and pressed your lips against mine. The day that you separated our kiss and just smiled at me then crashed them together again. I'm sorry again, but I would push you away. I wouldn't let myself fall for you again. I wouldn't let you pull me in and pull all my broken pieces together because those pieces were bound to fall again.

If I could just go back. Save myself from this hurt and this pain that you have caused me, I would.  You did something to me that I never thought was possible, you made me doubt my worth and you made me feel like i wasn't good enough. You found the way to break my heart. You kissed me, and then never kissed me again. You held my hand, then never touched me again. You told me I made you happy, then never told me that again. 

But I love you. I care for you. I would go to the end of the world for you and you wouldnt return that... One day you'll realize that I felt that way and you let me go... You flooded my thoughts but I did not know how to tread the water, therefore.. I'm sitting here and I'm drowning and you couldn't care less.

If I could go back to the day I met you... Tell myself what you would do to me and how you would make me feel... I would turn away.. And i promise you this...

i would not look back once

Reviews

[Margaret]

Poetry is an art without rules. I do think if you want your poetry to be a bouy in the sea of poems, you have to share your experience with your audience the exact way you did. Immerse them in the setting. Give them the smells, the images, the physical feelings, and facial expressions. You've listed a lot of feelings but that doesn't do anything for the reader. If you want the reader to feel something and connect with your work you have to make them feel it by description rather than telling them what to feel. It makes it more personal. For instance I could say, "I was heartbroken" or I could say "I spent that night sweating between cotton sheets and flannel blankets, staring at the white ceiling as though my eyes were painted and dried on my face." The second one certainly takes more words but the reader can infer the heartbreak by feeling as though it is then staring at the ceiling. Overall, I think you have the emotions. It might just be a bit better if you projected them personally rather than objectively.

[Greg Agee]

After reading a lot of your work and Im a fan. May I make a suggestion.. Treasure the moments of memories you have and let the rest go..... Write about what you take away a little more. I love that part of your Prose, ITS BEAUTIFUL

[G]

Your words on everything mean the world to me. Someone acknowledging the meaning behind my writing affects me immensely.Thank you and good luck for you too, Greg.