I'm sorry for this boy

On a daily basis my dad loves to remind me that I'm his princess. That he loves me and that I deserve the best. That I should settle for no boy who treats me less than I deserve.. He'll say "Dont cross an ocean for someone who wont jump over a puddle for you."

I'm sorry, Dad. I'm sorry for not believing you. I'm sorry for not acting on your words. I'm sorry if I disappoint you.

The thing is, Dad, is I care about him so much. I would go to the ends of the earth for this boy and beyond if he asked me to. If he's in a bad mood its in my nature now to fix that because his happiness is now above my own. He's my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. But i am not even close his.

Dad, you have to understand how dependent i have become on this boy and that I would change that if my heart would let me... But when i say this believe me, please.... I've tried. I've deleted his number, I've deleted the memories but they always seem to find a way back into my head and it hearts. My heart hurts.

If i was this boy's princess then his kingdom must be awfully ruled... He's hurt me and i run back to him every time. How many times he says "sorry" in one day is numerous and absurd. But it doesnt matter to me and it should. I deserve better, dad, like you said I do. I believe that with all my heart. I deserve someone that cares about me as much as i care about them and WOULD cross that ocean for me if i asked. But i can't overcome my first obstacle. I can't leave the boy I truly believe I am falling in love with.

I need him to need me back.

I'm sorry Dad if this upsets you. I'm sorry if it hurts you that the daughter you raised think so little of herself that she can't leave a boy that won't give her the time of day. Please forgive me for falling in love with someone who will say he loves me but not show it in any way shape or form.

I need your help. i need you to tell me it's okay to leave and okay to be sad because when I finally find the courage to end it i'm going to need you.

Please be there when this boy finally breaks my heart.

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[Greg Agee]

Don't pay the price that's necessary for someone that won't even pay attention. Don't expect change unless your ready for more change. True love doesn't fade. It never has to wait. The greatest memories are made of very small moments in time. Good luck in Love G