Looking Back

Just what it says

Looking back now after so many years have passed
I wonder if I could of done any better
Tried any harder
Perhaps I didn't try at all (at least thats what she said to me)

Could I have taken more time
time over all that I tried to do
more rose's
sweet words too

All in all I think I tried, did all that I could do
I gave my heart though maybe not my soul
Not my soul for you to abuse

But my love for you to use

Looking back I know
know exactly what you really thought of me
you said you were a bird that needed to be set free
LIER

Looking back
It was I that played the fool
Looking back it was I that laughed at all your silly jokes
But looking back I remained the crying clown

Looking Back, just looking

Never really seeing

Never again will this clown look back
and think thats what I wished it would be

Never
No never
Going back

So you must see why even though you beg
I cannot return
To that place we used to be.

Author's Note

I have not read over this, not had the time, always so rushed, with nothing to do

Reviews

[Disillusioned]

Love it for the raw beauty it is. When looking backward, one often misses what is currently before one's eyes. To see with clarity, one must always look directly at the now.

[Alicia™]

I like this poem… It could use a little editing since it has some typos and such, but don't over edit, because what I love about a poem written in haste is the rawness that it has.

[J.M]

'Looking Back, just looking

Never really seeing' - what fantastic lines. I really liked the fluctuating font and the clown imagery- the way clowns usually represent fear or amusement, but here all i sense is sadness and regret.

[claudia1201]

touching piece..to me..if i crawled outa a dreadful experience, i will not return or repeat..the sun will shine again..cherish the moment :)

[Marie Harrison]

Wow! This was so intense and filled with a clear and pointed voice. Excellent. I look back much too often. I love this poem, it shows strength.

[Angela Mulley]

I like the way you've presented this piece, and it reads well. Great write!

[Liza]

i usually don't read over my writes because an inspiration filled glide keeps it smooth = this was an intense flow to the past - intense longing but nostalgia would probably make us nauseaus when we can't go back - a lesson learned - appreciated even when looking back with pain.

[luciddreamer]

This one pulled at me....in a good way....wonderful write here :)

Peace
Robin

[xjust-for-me.x]

Enjoyed very much...and yes never look back it not worth the pain it brings

[Poetic Beauty]

Sometimes we just can make someone else happy no matter how hard we try. Sometimes there are people in this world that are never happy no matter how hard you try. I love the looking back part of this poem.