recovering addict

this was inspired by NAKED HEARTS by Pax Analog -- [its a must read]. i rolled with the idea of a naked heart in a different since.

deceat and drugs fill the air as she bares her all

the light over head creates a spot light on her heart

she reviels all she's hidden inside, all the secrets

that would destroy a family and home

 

the scars on her thighs are clearly visible in the florestent light

a secret she spoke to the world, no longer ashamed

she opens her heart, stripped, bare, and bleeding

the stories that caused her to cut her forearms

and create a pattern of letters reading "used"

illumenate the pain that she felt as the blade cut in her skin

 

no longer ashamed, she tells the world who she is

inside and out, and how she remains a live

through the words of this poem and the sentences that reviels

a sense of belonging and understanding for those like herself

 

the blade no longer controls the roughness of my skin

i'm a recovering addict, addiction to the sight of my blood

is no longer what i crave, or desire

Reviews

[fireblossom]

As a recovered addict I can review this poem from a perspective unknowable to some. The authenticity of this piece bespeaks personal experience as addict or a person who supported the recovery of an addict. All of the hot buttons are pushed from the spotlight position of the addict speaking to a group of peers to the reasons for bleeding. My addiction was not cutting the outside of me...but it was cutting all the same. Release from pent up pain is what it is all about. Finally speaking it out to at least one person and admitting (usually over time) the extent of the damage we have caused begins the healing process.

Very honest and open poem.

All the best to you.

[JRB]

this is good for all to read,
Jan/uisiom