chapter 14

Lily woke up in the hospital. She looked at victor who was standing next to her bed looking anxious.
 

"Are you alright? Lily speak to me please. Please. Please." His voice lowered to a whisper.

"I think i'm alright." Lily remember hearing Sam scream and the glass shatter. "Wheres Sammy."


Victor face filled with grief.

"WHERE IS SHE WHERE WHERE WHERE." Lily screamed at victor. "She cant be dead. I need her i need Sam. She is my best friend. She cant be dead. She cant." Her voice dropped to a whisper. "where is she." Victor barely heard her she said is so quietly. Lily started sobbing.


"No no no its all fine you can be checked out of the hospital now again even." Victor couldn't stand to lie to her but he couldn't tell her the truth. Zadia needed her. He needed her.


"Lily your alright." A tear filled Mrs. Buswell's eyes as she said the words. "I thought about what happened to Sam that i would lose you too." Sam's mom rushed forward and hugged lily tight. "Poor Sam and Dylan. They were expecting a baby soon too. I thought i should tell you. She was so happy. She told me not to tell you. Seeing that she is de..." Sam's mom could bear to say the words.

"Dead." Lily mind raced her heart pounded  she started screaming. Dylan's dead. Her head started spinning.

"Lily wake up. I cant believe this. Victor your supposed to take care  of her. Now look she could be dead." Zadia started crying.

"Look what you did." Victor said sharply to Nate. "Its OK its OK daddies here." He calmed Zadia down slowly.

"GA AAA Bowwow Snafus." Zadia made normal baby noises in response to Victor.

"Victor the baby needs me. I will go get her." Lily mumbled half asleep. "Um huh wait. What. Oh wait Sam's dead." Tears stained her face quickly. She fell into Victors warm embrace. Zadia watched from her crib. "What am i going to do. You have chemo. I have tests. Nate has tests. Sam's dead. Zadia keeps us up at night. I don't know what I'm going to do anymore." Lily mumbled into Victors shirt. "I Love you. Sometimes i think i made a bad choice then i see you and i know how much i love you. Sometimes its too much. Other times I wish i had chosen different." She looked at Nate with teary eyes. She walked over and embraced Nate. "I think of how it would be different if i had chosen you and i want to cry. I think of Nelly. I think of how she beats you. She a crappy sister. I could have saved you if i had picked you. Your too different for me thought. I need a rock not a balloon. I still love you so much." She started crying harder. " I will be back later I'm going to the old house to sit in Sam's chair." She fled the house.

"She falling apart." Nate said before he went back to his house next door.

I Know. Victor thought. He went to put zadia down for her nap. He climbed the next steps to Lily's and his room. He fell to the bed.

"Sweetie whats wrong." Lily's mom called to victor. She walked into the bedroom. "You can tell me."

"Lily is falling apart Sam's dead Dylan's dead. Zadia is teething. Life is just messed up."