chapter 3

When she woke up she woke up to see Victor on her desk chair with an ice pack to the back of his head. "You okay?" Lily asked concerned.

"Yeah." Victor said. "He was just being a jerk."

"Yeah" Lily said.

"That you kissed." Victor accused. His words were like knives stabbing Lily in the heart.

"I'm sorry. Oh and I'm sorry for telling him that we are  dating i just said that i wasn't single and he assumed that meant the me and you were dating." Lily looked down at her hands ashamed. She expected for Victor to yell at her.

Victor stared at Lily shocked for a minute. Then he started laughing. "You said what" he said as he gasped for air from laughing so hard.

"Get out" Lily said throwing the closest thing. She hadn't realized that it was her journal and as her journal flew threw the air her razor fell out of it.

The book fell on the floor in front of Victor but he didn't even glance at it. He stood there staring at the bloody razor. He dropped to his knees. "Why" he whimpered. "Why do you continue to do this to your self nothing is your fault. Nothing!" He roared at her.

Lily heard every word and everyone was a knife cutting her heart to shreds. Then Lily noticed the page that the journal had opened to. She starred at it. She had wrote that page about 2-3 days ago. All it said on it was 6 words but they filled the whole page. The words read 'can't Victor see i love  him'. She dove for the book. She landed on it. Picked it up and tore the page out of it and shoved it into her pocket.

"okay I get personal page of your journal. I'm not aloud to read it okay, but that's not the subject right now." He growled at her. "You still cut yourself. That is unacceptable. So I'm taking this." He reached down and picked up the razor blade off the floor and pocketed it.

After he left lily turned over and screamed into her pillow. She turned and yelled angrily at the closed door "can't you see i love you. You big idiot."