World of Chaos

this world is such a mess

World of Chaos

I get lost in this world of confusion

Tell me what it is tell me what is an illusion

Life’s a long road; but I took a wrong turn

There’s no way back across these bridges that I burned

I’m falling down and these walls keep rising

How can I look forward when there is no horizon?

I’m tryna keep it cool, I’m tryna play it smart

But you can’t put Band-Aids on a ripped open heart

My thoughts are dark I just see myself bleeding

Falling from a height body rushing towards the cement

Life’s a nightmare and I can’t stop dreaming

I wish that I can wake up so my mind can stop screaming

These regrets just keep coming in recession

Each one another addition to my own depression

All my fault but can’t seem to learn my lesson

Because when life feels cursed it’s damn hard to count your blessings

Living life fast, I’m just going full throttle

Maybe the answer is at the bottom of that bottle

I love the burn as I take another swallow

My stomachs getting full but I still feel hollow

I’m just facing all my past mistakes

But with each beer life gets easier to take

Sometimes I wish that I can be put to rest

All because of the demons on my chest

I feel like Gods putting me to the test

So every day I get down on my knees and pray for the best

20/20 vision and I still can’t see clearly

I’m wondering in the end how will everyone remember me?

 

           Lily Lorenzo