Finish Last

another good poem

Finish Last

Smile brightly as you turn the other cheek
Stand strong as you cower on the inside

All for what because I'm tired of being the nice guy who finished last
When is this game of cat and mouse that I call my life going to end
Painful from the start this is a contest that I will not win
Even though I fight as hard as I can with all the fire and might still I finish last

Love what I have so much that I choke it so violently I didn't even know
Is it love or fear of being alone nothing is so great anymore
Swallow my feelings just to please so that I can live to see another day
Just to see them fail to return the favor as I finish last

Smile brightly as I am punched in the face
Stand strong just to be let down time and time again

I can't help but as myself is it love or obsession
I can't stop myself from wondering why is it this way
To lead or follow, to meet the challenge head on or cower
Why do nice guys always finish last why me?

I cover my eyes and look inside to see what I don't allow to come to the outside
Horrified at these inner demons I live a world filled with doubt
Where oh where do I go from here a life of submission just to allow the domination
To not give a f**k and just throw all I have away but to go where

Pack my suit case it's time to leave now and move far away
Drop these s**t morals and values I've lived so long by; just let the manners fade
It's time to take the bottle and drink; take the needle and shoot it up
To become what I have forever hated and maybe then I won't finish last

Walk down the path of so many before me
Climb the stairs just to fall down them and never recover
A star ascending in the sky just to be sucked into the black hole of hate
Consumed by the blackness of the world armed with a flash light with no batteries

In this game there are no winners; only ones who retain a positive outlook
An optimistic premonition that some day there will be an end
And only then the losers will finish last

Not me

Author's Note

my bf wrote it for me..