How

how can you say what I see
when you can see the beauty of everything I can't
how can you say what I feel
when you haven't forgotten what happiness is the way I have
how can you say the perfect things that make me die inside
then walk away thinking
I'm fine?

you don't know
you'll never know what it's like
to have your demons stitch your heart back for you
I can't feel pain
after living and breathing it for so long, I stopped needing it, it began needing me


I learned to be ok
without actually feeling ok
thanks to you,
I've appreciated a new version
of agony, realizing when you've felt all the shades of agony itself
there's nothing else to feel,
but nothing,

just nothing

Reviews

[Phill Oz O'fee]

Wow - a powerful and poignant piece exposing your vulnerability to another's neglect of 'your' perspectives!
Feeling nothing is preferable to the pain of mental abuse; for this is what a one sided relationship is basically. Great write and brave share - :-)