Nothing

A Poem by lillythorn

just a pondering place

How could I
Why should I
Been there, done that...
Been here before so many many times...
Why must a heart be so blind...
Why must it reach out so kind...
I beg my heart, Please! stop caring so easily...
It will hurt, and kills me on the inside...
Expressing my hearts desire, only to be ignored...
I am left lonely and broken on the floor....
I keep begging for more, please I must Feel Again
He walks like it was nothing, just another day in the game...
Where is the heart and soul, in it all...
Was it all just wasted time...
Was it all a front, put up for gain...
Fantasy maybe all it was, lying to hide the truth...
While I am dying on the inside, bleeding and broken...
My mind tends to ponder, Why my heart tends to cry...
How anyone could display such passion and love radiate from there lines, about ones thighs...
Then slam brick by brick a wall is built, from his side...
Maybe to hide all the lies, he holds inside...
Maybe just guarding ones self, to cover how they feel inside...
Now they walk like there is nothing inside...
Barely breath barely alive... WHY?
Why ask why drink bud dry.. lol
Walks like I was nothing inside...
What is my worth to another, what is my life...
To myself am I only worth more, I am my worth...
???
Did I ever matter, did I pull at the strings of their heart...
Did I make them come alive, or even Feel Again...
Or does my soul cry, and desire the cold heart of a man...
That walks onward, with no desire, no place for mine...
Not feel... Not touch... Not talk... Nothing...
What was I? to anyone's desire... Nothing...
But in the minds eye, it was all fantasy lines...
Based in a fantasy world, based on fantasy times...
The real you feel, the real was there,
Burning hearts of desire, if only for a time...
But, In the end who all is left with nothing...
The ones to shy to show...
Yet nothing... still comes to mind, in heat, passion, and joy...
For that time... Amazing...
Memories can truly be the small things, that are the big things, to keep ones heart guarded, safe, and sane...
To not feel pain for yet another day...

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