You

As I sit here thinking of you 

I remember how on Valentines day I gave you my dads dog tags

How when we broke up your friend through them in my face

And said I was a disgrace 

To my country and to you

Never knew I could cry as much as I did 

That night

I wanted to take flight and never come back

I remember how we went snow shoeing 

how I got them off for you you looked so happy 

as happy as I was 

we were the perfect match 

if we had a problem 

we would put a patch on it 

ever since you left my life 

I tried to fix the problem I made

I don't care if we are just friends 

you in my life is all i need 

but man my arms still bleed 

when I think of you 

your name spelled backward is Heaven  

and when I am around you I feel Like I am there 

but man all of this pain

I can not bare

my life is not fair 

I know that is was not right to have an affair 

I don't think I will ever find a girl like you in my life time

I remember how you used to be my girl 

we had so much fun 

the late night texts 

man they made me so happy 

for onec in my life

now my life is a black hole

I don't know what to do

seems like I never do 

who knew any girl could leave me with so much pain 

It seems like it is always raining 

even to it never is

I don't know what to do 

my sky is not blue

like yours 

but 6/20/18 tho 

that was so cool 

talked to you for a whole hour or so 

who am I kidding that is all i will ever get tho 

just because I don't have snapchat tho 

To be honest I am lost 

I want us to be friends 

no matter the cost 

I miss the way we used to be 

when we talked for hours on end

I wish we could go back in time and change everything

the past 

I wish i could change it all

And not have as much pain 

my past is filled with flames 

I would do anything to have just one more day with you 

you are my would 

you mean everything to me 

always have and always will

I want to repair 

the damage i have caused 

But man we don't even talk

please just listen to me for once

I wish we could brake the ice 

You say do this and do that 

and I that and this in hopes we can talk

all the things you don't know I am about to say 

All the times I come home the scars on my arms are because of you (I don't cut)

It was fun for a while loved your smile 

The grass looks so green 

But the sky is black

Who am I to blame 

only me 

Author's Note

Not finished

Reviews

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It was you. It's only you. I want you. You are to blame. You are the best. You are the worst. You are on my mind. You make me. You delight me. You haunt me. You are the single most influential person in my life. Whether it's life or death, you are in my thoughts.

I totally get where you're coming from. Of course the most powerful emotions spawn from a single thought, and that just steam rolls into something bigger. Nice piece!