"We all wear masks to cover our tears."

When I write, I mostly write for the ones who will be reading. Maybe I can help someone who feels the same way or has been through a similar circumstance.

Sometimes, I write for me. To vent through typing when it is too hard to say. So, here it goes. 

I am in pain. Emotionally, mentally, and even physically. 

I see a picture of a mother who loves her daughter so much that she would do anything for them. The picture is beautiful because it is full of love. But, sometimes when I see this, it hurts.

Someone makes a remark towards me that may be meant to be funny, but sometimes it hurts. Like, when someone tells you that no one cares or your in last place... Even when people around you shout out things like, "Well they are just a no-good crack head." To me, remarks like that hit me on a steep emotional level that some may never understand.

I am a very confident person and I see nothing wrong with that, but I have numerous people always making jabbing remarks about the way I look. That hurts. Not because I am insecure, but because I want you to see my heart before you see my outer core. 

People closest to me sometimes do not understand why I just want to go my room and shut the door. Sometimes it is emotional pain and sometimes physical, to where I just want to lay down and ease my mind.

I know that not everyone is going to like me or be nice to me,but I just wish people knew the damage they can make by the words that come out of their mouth.

I will be getting married June 18, 2016 and I can not wait for this day. Apart from the rest of my family, I will not have my mother there to button up my dress and tell me she is proud. And although I would not want anyone other than my Memaw to be that person, it still hurts.

10 out of 100 may think about the way they treat others and the things that they say. but sadly, the rest will ignore it all because unless it is done to them personally, they simply do not care.

Just remember one thing, I will ALWAYS forgive someone who has hurt me no matter what they did or said, but I will NEVER forget. You can't take back what you do and say to people.

"Be kind always because you never know the battles someone else is facing."