For the Right Man

This isn't really a story. It's a letter. :)

Dear Right Man,

           I don't know if you could ever read this, but I should not think about that.
                              
          First of all, I don't know if I'm worthy of such a great love like what you could have for me. I don't even love myself that much. I am different, you know. I could be the girl you might hate, or the girl who might always try to push you away. But please understand that I just do that because I'm not strong. I've never been strong. I know in myself that there will always be something wrong about me and that I couldn't even think right or let other people hear me or take me seriously.
         What I wanted in life is to just be who I am supposed to be and to let other people accept me and my stupid decisions because I couldn't be me without choosing my own decisions.
         Please know that, I don't like to be on the same place for a long time and I could be anywhere in the world. I could be living in Alaska or in Russia or in a farm in Australia. I could go to places and just get lost.
       I'm sorry if I wasn't the perfect one for you or what your Mum thinks as the perfect girl for you. But know that if you love me and if you could really prove it, then let me find myself and prove to you that I could also be worthy of your love. I could be a Lawyer or a Writer or a Doctor, but just wait for me if you have to, if you love me. I just needed to know who I'm supposed to be and maybe at the right time, we could see each other and continue everything we've had or what we're gonna have.
       I'm writing this to you as a seventeen year old girl and I know that I'm not pretty and I couldn't date plenty of guys out there but if you could, just let me feel like I'm the most beautiful girl you've ever seen and that no matter how old soul I am, you'd still love me.    
       Always believe that if we're really right for each other, then we must believe that we'd always be together. You should know every pain I've had in my past and you should tell me everything you've done. I'd have no prejudices against it and I won't ever judge you for what you've done and who you've been before you've met me. I'd like to think that you'll say things to me and make me feel really special and complete. I'd just like us to live a simple life near a beach and just love each other without doing anything that might get us to prison, you know.
      Please find me and don't ever ever ever stop loving me. Fight for me, if you must. Think of me when you're about to cheat. Because I am waiting for you somewhere.

Three words, eight letters.

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