3rd day crying

This is the third day since my wife has gone to be with the angels....

My wife passed away three days ago. I was there when she coded in the ICU room she had been in for the previous 3 days. I had been through this 4 days before in her regular hospital room but she made it.
Not this time. What you see on tv is nothing when you see your loved one slipping away from you while the staff try to save a life. An experience I would not want anyone to go through. Beverly had been admitted on Wednesday. This was Monday afternoon and I hadn’t left her side except to grab a quick note or coffee and to run to the house to tend to our beloved rescue babies Luke, Jack and Cody.
She didn’t make it. Her body had been fighting pain for years but just could not handle the battle anymore. I am at peace with the fact she is not suffering anymore.
My life journey as a widower begins now. I am in a daze, just trying to cope and keep my sanity. The funeral is tomorrow. I will try to get mindset right if there is a way.