broken mind

did you ever think about anyone but yourself for five minutes? you broke me down to the point where i didn't think i would make it to recovery. you took my heart poked it with needles, trimmed the edges with scissors, and didn't see any harm. well what about tonight. im laying on the bathroom floor, crying, screaming for help. but no one can recover me now. no amount of treatment, medication, therapy, will ever make me happy again. my head hurts, my wrists ache, my heart bellows to the sound of your name. you told me to never worry about being alone ever again, but where were you that night that i screamed your name into the dark atmosphere? as im sitting here writing this, my eyes sting of our memories. but all laughs turn into cries. all love evolves into hate. all good becomes bad. my world is crashing down, all at once. im done fighting; my inner demons are taking over, and this time, im letting them win.