Chapter 1-The Ram

Chapter 1-The Ram

A Chapter by Laurie Lancaster
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The Signs







A Novel and Guide by Laurie Lancaster


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Girl to Goddess

Volume I-Girl





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The course of true love never did run smooth.


William Shakespeare








Chapter 1-The Ram Aries


Chapter 2-The Bull Taurus


Chapter 3-The Twins Gemini


Chapter 4-The Crab Cancer


Chapter 5-The Lion Leo


Chapter 6-The Virgin Virgo


Chapter 7-The Scales Libra


Chapter 8-The Scorpion Scorpio


Chapter 9-The Archer Sagittarius


Chapter 10-The Sea Goat Capricorn


Chapter 11-The Water Bearer Aquarius


Chapter 12-The Fish Pisces



Astrology is the truth.  The Earth is real.  The Sun, the Moon and the stars exist.  They have been following the same paths and patterns since time began.  Nature is real.  Spring brings summer which ushers in fall leading to winter.  Every time.  There are no years where spring follows summer or where winter follows spring.  The sun rises and sets every day. The moon waxes and wanes every month.  There is a natural order.  There is an underlying Truth.


My God and Goddess are in the sky.  They are called the Sun and the Moon.  You can even see these Gods.  You look at them everyday.  Humans have been worshiping the Sun and Moon since the beginning of time. They are the real Gods.   At some point, mankind’s Ego got wind of the Truth and made Man himself ‘God’ instead of Nature.  Since then humanity has made a mess of itself.  As a result of our disconnection from the Source, we have forgotten a lot of important information.


That is why I have been sent here.  This lifetime.  To be a Messenger to Humans.  An Angel to Mankind.  To warn them.  To help them.  To see what is coming.  To see the Light.  I am here to get the message through to you.  You need to read this book.


I am writing a guide book about Astrology.


Astrology-noun-The study of the movements of celestial bodies interpreted as having an influence on human affairs and the natural world.  From Astro-Greek for ‘star’.


My book is called “The Signs”.  It is a guide book about the twelve Zodiac signs.  The cycle of human spiritual growth and development.  I feel compelled to share the truth with the world.  Those books- the Bible, the Torah, the Koran do contain the same answer.  The truth we’ve all been looking for.  The story that they have been telling and retelling since the beginning of time.  It has been distorted and misinterpreted for gain.  But the truth has always been there underneath it all.  The real message of the texts.  Beyond the corruptions of Man.  That’s why whenever I jog by and see a religious house of worship, I pause and think Love.  The cross is actually a corruption of the wheel of the Zodiac. Shoutout to Mother Earth. 


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I will attempt to explain how important the day a person is born is.  There is a reason we celebrate our birthday.  I know it is the single most important question you should ask another human upon meeting them.  It can give you more information about that person than any other question.  Don’t believe me.  Start asking people.  Or prove me wrong by giving me a better question.

  

When we are born, there are certain stars and planets in positions.  Nature is in a different part of the cycle- winter, spring, fall, summer.  A child born in the balmy days of July enters a different reality than the child born in the dead of winter. Being born in a different part of the cycle does affect you and how you see the world and others.  The spark of life optimism of March people or the heat of the summer joy of Leo's or the sadness and peace cold miserable February Pisces return to the cosmos.  


Birth to death and all its fun lessons in between.  It repeats again every 12 months.  It’s called a cycle.  When something does that, it is predictable.  It is going to happen again the same way next time.  There is always going to be a September.  We can learn so much from the sun and the moon if we listen to nature and see the truth.  Look for it.  It’s everywhere.    


The Sun-the horned God, the ‘Son’ of God, hey call it whatever fills your boots.  He rises and sets every day.  Never fail.  He hasn’t failed yet.  So it must be a truth.  Right?  Are things really that simple?  Yes man, they really are. 


The Moon-the Goddess, the mother of God, mover of tides and ruler of water.  She’s always there too.  Right?  Every night.  Even when you can’t see her.


Male and Female together.  


Get it.


That’s the answer.


I digress.  I’ll let you read the book when I am finished writing it.  At this rate, that may never happen.  I am a Gemini after all.  We aren’t very good at finishing things.  We like to start projects but we only finish them sometimes.  But when we do stick with something, it tends to be spectacular.  Wish me luck


There are 12 signs for the 12 months.  There are 3 signs in each of the 4 elements.


Air, Fire, Water and Earth.  The building blocks of all life.  The four elements are the basics of astrology and of planet Earth.   


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Chapter 1-The Ram 


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Aries

1st House


March 20 to April 19


Element Fire 


Fire is the spark, initiative, the beginning.  The explosion into reality, creation from the cosmos. Spirit.


FIRE

is the Ego

the Hero

the physical

punch in the face

excitement of the chase

the Knight in Shining Armour

the Win

the Sun

hot headed, burning up

destructive, explosive

volcanoes in the ring

the little flame 

stoking it within

the glow large in some

dim in others

it is action

impulse

sparks flying over 

my body

it is red, orange, purple

higher, out of control

dying into the burning embers

purifies and renews

eating up the energy around it

only feeling Self

warming us, feeding us, healing us

keeping us ALIVE


Direction Cardinal (The leader of us all)


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What is the meaning of the cardinal bird as a totem?


The cardinal is a power-packed bird that transforms and awakens us. Its color and voice are its two strongest characteristics. It is a member of the finch family and is often recognized by its brilliant red color. 


The eggs laid by the female hatch in about twelve days. This, along with the cardinal's year-round residency, reflects the rhythm of the number twelve. The number twelve often has important significance for those with this totem. It can indicate a turn of events or a life changing situation. When the cardinal flies into your life expect a change to occur within 12 days, 12 weeks, 12 months or at the hour of 12. Because this bird is a year-round resident, its medicine is available at all times and should be used by those with this totem whenever a need arises. 


Cardinals have a loud whistle, a whistle that penetrates the air with sharp distinct tones. They demand our attention, urging us to hear what is carried through the air. Both male and female cardinals join in the whistling. This reflects the need to integrate our male and female characteristics into our day to day life. Feminine energy is linked to intuition; Male energy to perseverance. If both are operating within our life, our intuitive knowledge has the perseverance and strength necessary to manifest our goals and dreams. 

Cardinals eat many decaying weeds and injurious insects. When a cardinal appears in your life it is telling you to pay attention to your eating habits. Are you eating things that might be injurious to your health? Is your diet nutritionally balanced? Extra care should be given to the blood and circulatory system. Past life ties to overindulgence or the consumption of poisonous substances is often linked to cardinal medicine people. 

The bright red color of the cardinal is very symbolic. Red represents the blood or life force of the Mystic Christ. In yoga circles this vital force is known as the kundalini. The kundalini lies dormant within us until activated by a disciplined spiritual practice. Once activated spiritual power can be attained. The cardinal offers safe passage into the world of personal power for those who ask for its help. 

When a person with cardinal medicine steps onto a spiritual path there will be no turning back. Everything else in their life will seem insignificant. Extra care must be taken here to insure personal happiness, particularly in the area of one-to-one relationships. Balancing spiritual ideals and physical pleasure will need to be instated in ones life so harmony on all levels is known. 

Cardinals are named for the cardinals of the Roman Catholic Church with their bright red robes. A great love or a strong dislike for religion and churches is common amongst cardinal medicine people and can indicate a past life connection with one or both. 

The cardinals voice is strong and clear and reflects an air of importance. This power-packed bird can teach you how to express your truth, develop confidence, and walk your talk. If you respect its teachings it will lead you home.

Masculine


“I am”


Let me introduce myself.  I am Magog the Raccoon.  I am going to tell you a story about a woman.  Her tale is a warning.  To pay attention to the signs and signals that the Universe sends us.  The signs are all around you. They are there to help us to grow.  To protect us.  To fulfill our purpose on Earth.  


Her story is true and her suffering was great. That girl became a strong woman once she understood the signs.  A Hero.  A Leader.  A Guardian Angel to Mankind.  Her beginnings were small and humble.  A working class girl.  A single mother.  Here is the first part of her journey that led her from being a Girl to becoming a Goddess.


My name is Penny.  I am the narrator of this tale of true love.  A tale for the ages.  I am not really sure how this story ends yet.  You will have something to do with that.


It takes place in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada.  A hidden gem of a city.   I am the one who gets to tell the world about her.  One day when I travel the world and say I’m from Ottawa everyone will finally know where it is.  I want the world to look at Ottawa and see the special place it is.  The green city with canals and rivers.


I guess Ottawa is my city.  I feel ashamed to admit it.  No one wants to be from Ottawa or claim it is their city.  It is that kind of place.  When people come to Canada they visit Toronto or Montreal. Ottawa, where is that?  In between those two cities, a*s clowns.  Get a map.


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The city is undervalued, under appreciated and unknown.  It is beautiful in all the right ways a city should be.  It is green with parks, bike path, nature conservatories.  It has swans and herons, rivers, lakes, canals running through it.  Summer festivals that last for weeks music running into my patio and through my windows.  ‘F**k u city’ echoing over the Quebec mountains.  Perfect home base location for an urban witch, a pixie troublemaker, a fighter for the common man.


The view from Ottawa is of Quebec.  Where my heart lies.  The Gatineau hills, the foothills of the Laurentien mountains.  That is where my soul comes from.  I always return there.


I want the world to finally know and see Ottawa.  Look at her beautiful roads like Queen Elizabeth Drive and the Parkway.  Get yourself a bicycle, convertible or a Harley to appreciate it fully.  Only city of 1 million where I can be jogging at lunch time and not see another human being anywhere-just me and nature. 


In the movie version of this book, you have to film it in Ottawa if it still exists.  Toronto or NYC can’t be used to pretend.  You need to film it here and let the world really see this place.  My homage to Ottawa.


Juliette Lewis could play me in the movie version of this book.  She is the closest physical manifestation of me in the form of a known American actress.  I am also like the character Joy on “My Name is Earl”.  Her toughness and foul mouth.  Some unknown chick would be better.  My twin I’ve yet to meet will audition for the part of me.  Trippy intention that one is.


I’m 38 years old but I dress like I’m 15.  I wear rock t- shirts (Pink Floyd, AC/DC, Stones) cargo Capri pants and sandals most of the year.  I like to refer to guys as “Bud” “Dude” or “Chief”.  I am sorta a tomboy.  Half of me is a guy.  My cool twin. 


I curse constantly.  I love swearing.  Such colourful fun words.  I do it to be expressive.  Not obscene.  I also love making up new curse words.  It amuses me to hear my friends use some of the words I make up.  My latest incarnation is ‘chugnuts’.  I love language over everything.  It is what drives my spirit.


My intro sequence should play the song “Moonage Daydream” by David Bowie.  I enter.  I am jogging downtown along Gladstone Avenue midday February, minus 20 Celsius.  Bright and sunny.  


I have long blonde curly hair under my navy blue Habs hat.  Blue eyes.  Lots of tattoos.  Piercings.  Dark painted fingernails.  Kept short since my years of working as a cook and playing the violin.   


I am often compared to a pixie or elf.   My body type would be considered ‘wiry’.  When I walk I have a sidewinder way.  The walk of a cop.  I have long legs. John loves my legs.  Says they are the sexiest legs he has ever seen.  But more on Big Sweet John later.  This is my intro.


When I run I am my most vulnerable and most powerful at the same time.  No protection from my talismans, my gemstones.  I take them all off before I run.  I am naked.  No makeup.  No flashy attire. No external physical guards.


But strong, fierce, brave, free, hard.  Running my arm sleeve protects me.  Keeps other humans on alert.  Or my FU hoodie.  That definitely sends a clear message.  When I run, my strength and endurance on Earth grows stronger.  I can pound up the hills faster than flat ground.  I prefer the mountains.  I jog up them every chance I get.  


I round a corner, crossing Bay Street, let a huge hork of spit and sing at the top of my lungs “Make me know you really care.  Make me jump into the air”.  I enter into Chinatown running underneath the arch.  I see my shadow boxing as I look down at the pavement.  Often it is rapping or giving the thumbs up.  Running through my neighbourhood.  I’m in my element.  Following four of my daily rules at once.  Music, exercise, outside and extending love.  


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Ottawa is the capital city of Canada.  It is a government town.  They are the main employer in the city.   It is home to the federal government.   It also has provincial and municipal government workers too.   One third of the area works for the Man.  60% of the population has a university degree.  That is a requirement to work for the government.  See a trend.  This town is Zombieland.  


It is heavily policed like all urban centers.  Three levels of police patrol the streets.  Add the numerous by-law officers, firetrucks, ambulances, enforcement vehicles marked and unmarked roaming around.  They favour Gladstone Avenue to Elgin Street.  They like to lurk near the Quickie in front of Crabapple’s school.  That is right beside the oxi pharmacy that John went to.  The other day they found a woman there beaten unconscious on the street.  In front of my son’s school.  Charming but true. 


I am a witch.  A white witch.  Practice Wicca.  I worship the sun and the moon.  Nature.  Earth, air, water and fire.  The four elements.  Not that old pagan nonsense you say.  Yep, it’s true.  And I cast only good spells.  For health, protection.  Well, sometimes the kids do spells for money.  And all our spells are always done with good intentions and love. 


Spiritual Goal to learn the meaning of selfless love


Planet 


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Named after Ares (Mars), the God of War.  It is the 4th planet from the Sun.  It is half the size of Earth and a year there is 687 days.

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Mars Warrior God, God of War and agriculture.  Depicted with a shield in battle gear.  Favoured second behind Jupiter by the Romans.  March is named after him as his festivities were celebrated that month each year.


Herbs for Mars

Ash, aloe, dogwood, buttercup, chives, coriander, garlic, mustard, onion, pepper, radish, tarragon, thistles, tobacco, vervain


Day of the Week Tuesday Mardi (French) from Mars’ Day


Part of the Body Head, face, brain and upper teeth 


Aries people tend to have head injuries, aneurysms and other brain disease or scars on head or face at some point in their life.  That is their most vulnerable spot.  They are the ones to fall flat on their face.  Literally.


Ages 0-7 (Age of a child)  


Aries personify children under the age of 7 their entire lives.  An important factor to keep in mind.  Explains the temper tantrums and the ‘me’ personality.  They are the eternal children of the Zodiac.


Tarot Card The Emperor, The Tower


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This card is full of Aries imagery.  Note the ram heads on the Emperor’s throne.  The leader.  The King.


Sacrifice the Emperor.  My cards kept telling me this for months.  What did it mean? I kept asking myself.  The rules, the system, the police, my Mother, the government.  All of it.  I know now.  I had to let it all go to be free.


Cities Florence, Krakow, Marseilles, Naples, Verona 


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These are cities that a person would feel at home in.  There are qualities about this place in the world that will appeal to the nature of that person.


Countries Denmark, England, France, Germany, Palestine, Poland, Sweden 


Aries is ruled by the Planet of War and look what countries it rules. No kidding.  Will a couple World Wars do for starters?


Flowers/Plants daisy, tiger lily, geranium, honeysuckle, sweet pea, all thorn bearing trees

Gemstones 

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Becomes dark red and cloudy when evil is about to befall the wearer



Metal iron-protective metal, evil avoids it, best when in form of nails or horseshoes


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Colour Red courage, fire, health, sex, passion, protection, strength


Red is Aries colour.  They love to wear red clothing.  Mars is the Red Planet.  They often see red.  Blood is red.  Colour of passion, sexual desire, fire.


1st House ( These are the things in life that your sign rules over.  You will have a natural affinity for these things, a proficiency in them and should seek them out and use them to your advantage.  They are your birthright.)


self-assertion, initiation, new beginnings, personality

action, daring, challenge, adventure, health & fitness

exploration, pioneering, discovering

aggression, creativity, personal goals

personal control of everything, attitude, instincts

competition, winning, being first

courage, honesty, nobility, openness

police, army, firemen



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One of my favourite spells is every day a firetruck crosses my path with the sirens on.  Usually it is Ladder #2.   The Preston Street boys.  The ones who used to wake me up at 3am when I lived in the house on Penny Street with John.  I usually see the boys when I am on my daily jog.  


I’m always wearing my Montreal Canadiens attire.  In the winter, it is my matching hat and mitts and in the summer, my t-shirts.  My favourite uniform for street pounding.  I am on that team, that tribe for life.  I only belong to two tribes here on Earth.  The Habs tribe and the Irish one.  They are tattooed in my Earth for that reason.  They are deep in my skin.  I won’t change my mind about the teams.  Loyalty matters. 


I am currently employed as a safety inspector the labour department for the government.  I am an enforcement officer.  I enforce the rules of the state.  The good rules.  The health and safety ones.  The ones that are supposed to help people.  


My territory is downtown in the city.  I have cracktown, centretown, Chinatown, Little Italy and the Glebe.  I have the rich and poor, up and snotty, down and out, high and dry.  The construction zones, the bus lanes, the cabs, the pedestrians, the cops, the bylaws, the noise, the dirt, the meters, the buzz, the core.


I’ve inspected the courthouse, the jail, fire department, paramedics. I’ve inspected the hospital, restaurants, factories, shops and concrete plants.  You name it.  Gay porn store, homeless shelter, methadone clinic, garages, nursing homes, funeral homes.  I’ve seen it all.


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Considered the original sin.  The most serious.  The source of the others.


The highway of the upright avoids evil, those who guard their ways preserve their life.  Pride goes before destruction, haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:17


I love kicking in the back door. To the kitchens when I inspect restaurants.  I’m a back door girl.  Literally people:) First I locate the premise (cop talk for building location) and go to the back of it.  Most times it is located in a back slimy alley.  I find the metal delivery door and kick it hard with my right brown steel-toed boot.  With my cop knock.  BANG. BANG. BANG.  Hard, loud, fast.  


“I mean business, get your a*s to the door.  The Man is here!”  


Athena has a cop knock.  Must be genetic.  But she uses it as her regular knock and it scares the s**t out of people.  After the loud kick pounding, I enter the building and state loudly with authority “Department of Labour, I’m here to do an inspection.”  In through the back door.  


I usually do two rounds of my turf every day.  One is by car.  In the official “vehicle”.  The other is on foot.  Usually running.  I know these streets.  My roads.  My pavement.  Every day I go down Gladstone, Bank, Somerset through Chinatown to Little Italy up Preston Street.  I go by the Canal every day, usually on foot.  In the winter the bike paths are snow covered.  Hard to jog on.  But I still do.  


I have commanded rooms of doctors, lawyers, government officials, high ranking big shots who are at that moment under my power. The power the government gave to me.  The power I’ve never abused.  Avoided.  Like the plague.  I like to fly under the radar.  I call myself Dirty Penny.  My idol is Dirty Harry.  He was the honest cop, the lone wolf with integrity who got all the s**t dumped on him.  That would sum up my career so far.  


I have an unmarked car.  I call the marked ones the “moving target”.  I don’t wear my official cop swat navy blue jacket either.  That is the target on my back literally.  Half of my colleagues think that they are cops.  Well, they want to be.  Badge on their belt. SWAT team coats, belt buckets, hats.  All marked up, announcing their power.  They want every man, woman and child on the street to see their position of authority.  Not the point, is it?  Remember that with great power comes great responsibility.  Just like Spidey says.  One of my Heroes.


My work car is a white Chrysler Sebring.  I named him Moby Dick.  After the novel.  I had been assigned the novel in college for an American Literature course.  600 pages in and I still hadn’t seen the whale.  Then I spilled purple Kool Aid on the book.  It swelled up into a huger tome.  Even more daunting to finish.  I never did.  Had to write my final exam on it.  Describe “perception” in Moby Dick.  Unreal.  You don’t even see the whale till the end of the book.  


Captain Ahab lost his leg to the White Whale.  It was a tale of his quest for revenge. The whale ends up killing all of the ship’s crew except the narrator.  In the book, the Whale wins.  But in my book, Moby Dick loses.

They never did a criminal record check on any of us when we started.  Seems insane to think that the government wouldn’t do that on a group of people with such an important job.  A job with so much respect, power and responsibility.  Where honesty and integrity are two of their main tenants.


I can pass a criminal record check no problem.  I don’t have one.  That is why I am not afraid.  Fill your boots.  My Dad is a cop, my brother is a cop.  I applied to be a spy.  They checked the s**t out of my background on that one.  And when my brother became a cop, they grilled him and our whole family.  But when I became the safety inspector, nothing.  I often have thought that if they had done that, they may have found a thing or two about a couple of the new employees.  Something not good. 


I know I have been a “cop” before.  In my past lifetimes here on Earth.  I was the Sheriff once.   That is where my sidewinder walk comes from.  Holdback from patrolling the boardwalk.  I was alone and feared that life.  Relieved the moment when I died.  To be free of that life.  The chains of authority and fear that held me.  John calls that part of me Colt Seavers, the Wingnut. 


It is one of my many tags.  I go by a million different names.  I have my witch names.  Secret.  My given name.  My pen names.  My internet names.  My superhero name.  My millions of nicknames.  One of my favourites is Kid.  I think John calls me that because he sees the little child in my nature because I watch cartoons and eat ice cream.  The little Kid to his Boss.  He f*****g hates it when I call him that. That is exactly why I say it.


Colt Seavers, the Wing Nut


that’s the Hero

of our tale

aka the Female Unabomber 

or FU


that broad is 

crazy, nuts

wild, out there

eccentric

Genius


she’s a crackpot, Witch

troublemaker

subversive, agitator

Messenger


What’s her next

move

interest

idea


always Changing

Woman


fur but not habits


Magog the Raccoon

Achtland 

the Amazon Warrior


Truth teller

Guardian

Angel 


She’s one

in a million

that bad Penny keeps turning up


One of the potential future careers I have been considering lately is hit woman of ex wives.  I already know plenty of men who would line up to pay for my fine services.  Get paid to hurt skanks.  It could work.  I have to enjoy what I do. 


Here is my business card.



Penny Lancaster

X-Slayer


Will torture if required




Show a scene in the movie version with me holding some broad by her front bangs and punching her right in her f*****g grill-Ka BAM!  I have two black belts in Tae Kwon Do.  I studied it for seven years.  I can break bones with my bare hands.  I figure that particular skill could be helpful in the hit woman business.  That and my pent up aggression.  I have a few different skills resumes of life filled up and counting.  I am full of surprises. Not all of them nice.  


I love Amazon women.  A tribe of women. Strong, beautiful, tall, warrior women who fight and kill men.  Strong arms and legs, barely dressed.  Not afraid of anything.  No fear of rape or attack.  They relish the chance to torture and kill a man.  I would love to live in that society. Maybe post 2012 we can create that action.  Count me in!  I was that woman once before.  That part of my soul is very strong in me still.  She is my Warrior.


My stepdad Jim is the epitome of an Aries.  He lived most of his life in the Yukon mountains.  Been to South America.  He also lived in Antarctica.  Built the airstrip there so he could get out.  A true pioneer, adventurer.  Complete with the plaid coats, wolverine rugs and  battle scars.  


Fire is the element of force, creativity, energy.  Fire people tend to be very brave, enthusiastic, outgoing, full of yang.  It is one of the elements most lacking in me.  I am full of air and water.  Earth and fire are needed to make me whole.  John and Athena are my human guides.  But I need to put real Fire into me to warm me up, to get me going.  Anytime in my life when the Fire came out of me, usually in the form of anger and fighting back, I was told to put it out.  That fire is dangerous, can get out of control, burn us all.  Instead, I’d bury the fire deep, deeper, so deep that it burnt out.  


My 3rd chakra-the solar plexus chakra has been blocked since I was 14.  I don’t think it is a coincidence that the part of my body that suffers the most is the part that needs Fire to be open.  I am stoking the fire inside me, making myself warm.  I will not hold it in anymore or put it out.  The Fire needs to get stronger in me.  I need to balance my 4 elements to be whole.  Fire is necessary to bring me peace.  I want to become fully ablaze.


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My Mother is an Aries.  My childhood was safe, happy and supportive.  My parents divorced when I was 4.  A raging alcoholic prone to violent fits is not a healthy environment to raise two infants.  In the movie version, show drunken, mirror smashing, screaming scene, small infants listening on the top of the staircase, have Dad played by Roger Daltry look-alike young version all set circa 1975.


My dad was a narc.  For the federal police.  Did cocaine and heroin busts for years.  He got stabbed in the lung when I was 13 and almost died.  Stabbed by a drug dealer who didn’t know he was an undercover cop.  Thought he was a lowlife dealer and planned to steal his money.  At the end of his career he worked organized crime and biker gangs. I would joke that he was slowing down.


Mom was honest.  A beautiful Fire sign trait.  


 “Fair! Life’s not fair!”  “Suck it up.” 


Nice upbeat mantras like that in my childhood.   Mom knew best.  Left with $200 and a set of encyclopedias for her two Gemini siblings.  She started from scratch.  No education, no work experience.  Never went on welfare.  I remember her walking to work because she had no car or bus pass.  Always told me and Mike to take care of ourselves.  


“No one in life will take care of you.  You can’t rely on anybody.  You need to be able to take care yourselves.  Have your own money.” 


To Mom, that meant education.  Lots of it.  We weren’t going to suffer like her.  We would go to university, get good jobs, and be independent.  Especially me.  It was harder for women.  You needed more to be on the same level.


I went to school.  University.  First in Montreal.  Then here in Ottawa.  Got degrees in English Literature and Canadian government and politics.  Wrote my Master’s thesis on what might happen if Quebec tries to leave Canada.  


My Mom helped to inspire the Poet and the fighter in me.  But she also told me not to dream large.  To settle.  To get the “good” government job.  Have stability.  Buy a house.  Have a family.  Get a car. Be a tax paying law abiding citizen.  Obedient follower.  Tow the line.  Go along with the lies.  Be a good girl.


I’m only listening to myself from this point forward.  Only my voice.  It is real.  I have to listen to my voice.  It’s mine.  Everything I seek is within me.  It’s my dream.  That fog is getting in the way.  I’m becoming free of this poison in my mind, that damn Ego.  It is what is really killing me.  I am feeding it negative energy and draining Love.  Don’t take anything personally.  Everyone is living his or her own dream.  Nothing others do is about you.  It’s about them.  


Same with me.  It’s all about me. Listen to your own voice; it’s the real one.  All the other ones are not reliable.  Other people even lie to themselves, so of course they may lie to you.  They say bad things, mean words, sad things- garbage.  I’m going to become immune to the evil spells of the naysayers, the critics with their negative words.  Their bad spells.  I want only good words to go into and out of me.  Positive words.  The Light.  Good wishes.  I’m done with that black nonsense.  I’m alive.  Life is beautiful.  My family mantra. 


Everything’s cool.  

Personality Traits



Positive

Negative

Leader

Must be the boss

Energetic

Brashness

Helps others to achieve their dreams

Blind to his or her effect on others

Accepts challenges

Intolerance

Believes the best of others

Jealousy

Takes risks for others

Doesn't listen

Defends the vulnerable

Selfishness

An Aries life is an open book

Impulsiveness

Will give life for the loved one

Poor judge of character

Continues action even if others give up

Dislikes being told what to do




Aries people are the leaders, the risk takers, the brave soldier who saves his entire platoon, they charge head first into action (their glyph symbolizes the horns of the ram).  They are the ones who run into a burning house to save a life, the Hero, the fighter.  


I noticed all the Fire Signs tend to be big meat eaters.  Must be part of their nature.  Maybe because they are all animals, (ram, lion and part horse).  


Aries are straightforward.  Tell it like it is.  Brutally honest.  Funny too.  Self centred too.  And never tell them what to do. They won’t listen anyways.


Aries are very quick tempered.  They are the employees who will punch out a co-worker.  Ask an Aries if they have ever gotten fired.  Then ask why?  Same applies to Sags.  The Fire signs are hot headed.  They pop quickly but are harmless after.  Just letting off some steam.


Likes Dislikes



books

being ignored

being liked

old things, second-hand stuff

the best wines

being placed less than first

unique licence plate 

feeling hungry

presents wrapped in nice paper

anyone who performs better than they

red roses

lingering after food

money to burn

physical restriction

new clothes

bland food

food in bright colours

having to wait for anything

personalized gifts, sparkling gems




Aries people love war stuff.  Weapons, armies, cops.  Hitler was an Aries.  The Planet of War rules them so it makes sense.  They have seen all the war movies, know the facts.  Take one to Poland for a grand tour of all the execution sites.  


Aries people love nature.  They love to live in the country with their guns and animal pelt rugs.  And country music collection.


They are solitary people who prefer their own company or strangely it seems the company of another Aries.  A lot of Aries men have a hard time growing up.  Becoming the 35 year old man still living on Mom’s couch.


Aries people are known to be very jealous creatures.  Especially Aries men.  They are he-men.  They girls are too a bit. 


Hobbies


competitive sports

driving a status car 

any type of racing-car, bicycle, foot 

risky physical activities

military pastimes 

theatre


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Tuesday March 27, 1997

5pm Last night at John’s changed everything.  I didn’t think he was possible to love him more but I do.  He told me so many things last night.  I know he is madly in love with me.  I feel it.  He said the most intense beautiful passionate things to me last night.  We are going to a write a book together-his life story.  He has led quite the life.  It is going to be one hell of a movie one day.  That is our million dollar idea for sure.


Monsters and Heroes are created.  I was created.  I am a product of my background.  My path.  It has been paved out for me.  My destiny.  It has all unfolded perfectly.  You can’t make this up.  We can all see it coming.  Truth is stranger than fiction.  The best stories of a Hero are the true stories.  This story is true.


Tuesday, April 6, 1998

1230pm Moon VOC Found new band I like-Dead Prez.  This band is mind expanding.  Wonderful. Happiness:)  I’m really starting to really hate the government.  I may become a female version of the Unabomber.  Except I won’t kill anyone.  Sabotage things.  Big corps and govt. Be a subversive:) I need to win the lotto.  That will save me from my bad turn.


915pm I’m hiding in John’s bedroom.  He is completely miserable right now. I wish he would get healthy.  I want to be free.  My enemy’s enemy is my Man.  I can’t even go near him.  It’s painful for me.  I’m not gaining any weight.  123 now.  Too low.  I feel like I am on the verge of becoming a radical, an anarchist.  I’m fed up.  I can’t take anything anymore.  I’m afraid of my head space right now.  


My cat Cardinal is an Aries.  Her birthday is April Fool’s Day.  She is a perfect little witch cat.  Except when Hungry Yapper wants breakfast at 5am.  Then she is just a pest.  She is like a mountain cat.  She site up high on top of our kitchen cupboards.  Climbs to the tops of trees like her namesake.  Peering down from her perch.  She exemplifies many Aries traits like being a leader, stubborn, hot blooded, doesn’t listen, risk taker. Aries people are very self centred.  Makes sense as they are the most undeveloped sign in the Zodiac.  They see the world through a small lens. The lens of Me.


Each of the Signs is a stage of development or evolution that we human beings pass through.  Starting with birth and ego development with Aries and ending with our complete evolution (if we are lucky) at death with Pisces.  Some people who are born late in the year may have to go back and learn some lessons behind them.  People who are born early in the year have the many lessons of the Zodiac ahead of them to learn.


There is nothing permanent except change.  Character is destiny.


Think about that.


As everything is changing constantly, the only thing that can be relied on to steer you through it all is your character.  Your character is the ship that rides the wave.  Nothing else.  


That is what will steer your path.  You.


Get smart stupid.  I direct the dream.  It is based on me.  My morals, my ethics.  Me being a good person.  Keep taking the middle ground.  Stay on the path to Love.  You aren’t wrong about that one.  Stay the course.


Me or MySelf


You are 

my one

the only one

me

my true love

is Me


You are what you seek:

the Cosmic joke


I am

I need no one else

nothing

it is all inside me


attach to nothing

everything and everyone

will pass by

just watch and enjoy the show

go with the flow of the stream


your anchor

only the 

You

remains 


‘Know Thyself’

it will save

you when you are tossed 

on the storms

of 

life


Six things there are, which the Lord hateth, and the seventh his soul detesteth: Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that deviseth wicked plots, feet that are swift to run into mischief, a deceitful witness that uttereth lies, and him that soweth discord among brethren. Proverbs 6:16

I am my soul.  This is all.  Our word is truly all any of us has.  Our words betray.  But our actions are real.  Pay attention to fellow human’s actions and deeds.  If they betray the words, they are liars and they are not to be trusted.  Words are easy to give.  Actions required work and effort.  That is the proof.  Put your $ where your mouth is.


My strongest intention for my life is to have a spiritual journey.  I am on a journey within.  To become free.  The Warrior against the Ego.  I am fighting the parasite within.  I am battling against mySelf.  The two guides-Love and Ego.  They like to refer to it as Evil or the Devil.  Because Ego is know by those names too.

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I am fighting through the darkness and beating that Devil within. The light is the way.  To killing it.  And being free.  But how do we fight this parasite of Ego so strong in our minds?  I am looking for all the signs from the universe that tells me how to fight it.  Words like Love and Truth.  Nature.


My son, keep the commandments of thy father, and forsake not the law of thy mother. Bind them in thy heart continually, and put them about thy neck. When thou walkest, let them go with thee: when thou sleepest, let them keep thee, and when thou awakest, talk with them. Proverbs 3:3

Because the commandment is a lamp, and the law a light, and reproofs of instruction are the way of life. Proverbs 6:23 

I’m an Angel.  A Messenger. The word Angel means messenger.  The Earth is full of angels.  They are everywhere.  Seen and unseen.  I have one that jogs with me.  That is why I have never gotten hurt. She is Ariel my guardian Angel from the North.  I always head North when I set out on my daily run. I have a destiny.  A mission here on Earth. 

I want to become a master wizard, a shape shifting healer, poet and teller of tales, lover, beautiful woman mother who is wise, wild and free.


That’s the beginning of the essence called Penny.  The projection of me.  The Self that defines me from everyone else.  And holds me back from peace.  I want to move from the Self of Aries to the Selflessness of Pisces.  That is the way.  From me to we.


The Aries in me is the fighter.  The leader of the pack.  Getting up every f*****g time.  The try and try again.  The Warrior Goddess.


Compatibility


Opposite Sign Libra (Air-Sign of Partnership) 


The sign opposite to yours has all the qualities that you are lacking and you have all the qualities they are lacking.  Together you can be complete and whole.  When the Sun is in your Sign, the Full moon occurs in your opposite.  For example during the month of Aries, the Full Moon is in Libra. Libra helps Aries see more than themselves.  Aries helps Libra be more independent and self reliant.


Good Match Fellow Fire Signs-Aries, Leo & Sagittarius


Aries and Sags are athletic and masculine.  Lot of fire!


The Other Air Signs- Gemini & Aquarius 


Air makes fire burn.  Aries and Gemini seem to always be friends liking to live in the now and laugh together.  


OK Match The Earth Signs- Taurus, Virgo & Capricorn 


Earth feeds fire.  Earth signs help ground Fire signs. Caps and Aries seem to be friend often.


Difficult Match The Water Signs-Cancer, Scorpio & Pisces  


Fire and water=steam or worse yet puts out the fire.


Secret Aries


All you need to remember is that Aries people think they are number 1 at everything.


Famous Rams

Rosie O’Donnell (March 21) Gary Oldman (March 21) William Shatner (March 22) Reese Witherspoon (March 22) David Suzuki (March 23) Steve McQueen (March 24) Harry Houdini (March 24) Elton John (March 25) Aretha Franklin (March 25) Keira Knightley (March 26) James Caan (March 26) Robert Frost (March 26) Steven Tyler (March 26) Tennessee Williams (March 26) Fergie (March 27) Mariah Carey (March 27) Quentin Tarantino (March 27) Vince Vaughn (March 28) Lady Gaga (March 28) Lucy Lawless (March 29) Cy Young (March 29) Celine Dion (March 30) Eric Clapton (March 30) Warren Beatty  (March 30) Christopher Walken (March 31) Al Gore (March 31) Angus Young (March 31) Descartes (March 31) Debbie Reynolds (April 1) Dana Carvey (April 2) Alec Baldwin (April 3) Eddie Murphy (April 3) Marlon Brando (April 3) Health Ledger (April 4) Robert Downey Jr (April 4)  Gregory Peck (April 5) Ram Dass (April 6) Russell Crowe (April 7) Francis Ford Coppola (April 7)Jackie Chan (April 7) Mary Pickford (April 8) Patricia Arquette (April 8) Hugh Hefner (April 9) Steven Segal (April 10) Joel Grey (April 11) David Letterman (April 12) Thomas Jefferson (April 13) Pete Rose (April 14) Leonardo DaVinci (April 15) Emma Thompson (April 15) Charlie Chaplin (April 16) Victoria Adams Beckham (April 17) James Woods (April 18) Dennis Quaid (April 19)  Kate Hudson (April 19)  Adolf Hitler (April 20)





Everything in the universe is within you.

Ask all from yourself.



© 2013 Laurie Lancaster


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