HEARTBREAK?

Heartbreak.... it's painful and you feel like the world is crashing down

How do we get heartbreak?

Why do we deserve heartbreak?

Why do we even have hearts?

Whats the point of loving if you only going to get hurt

Loving someone does not mean you going to be happy

Loving someone can lead to stabbing them in the HEART

Why love  when all you will get is pain

You see i was scared about losing you

I told myself , try harder , give him more love and he is your's 

But even trying harder and loving you more 

You still stabbed me in the heart 

The thing that makes me cry at night 

Is the way i spent my 11:11 wishes on you

The way i throw coins in the fountain 

How i wished hard on shooting stars

The way i craved for you to love me as deep as the oceans

Its funny 

How love blinds everything that is so clear 

The day you broke me 

I ran down the road with earphones in my ears

Blasting sad love songs

Tears racing down my  face

Memories of us rushing to my brain

I got home 

Looked at myself and asked my mother

"Is it wrong not to hate the person that broke you "

My mother couldn't answer 

No one could 

I saw why you never said " I love you back " when i said it

When you only wanted to kiss me when people were looking 

Like the way you took away my v-card to please everyone 

Did it please you 

Knowing that you destroyed a girl

That you took her everything 

For what?

A silly bet

To see which boy is more manly 

I see it now 

Why should you care for someone that is just a object in your path to victory

Was it victory 

When you found out i had depression 

Did it make you happy ?

When you found out i tried to overdose ?

WHY ?

People called me a s**t , a w***e 

It took a year 

For me to move on , get better 

Found others 

Others to love me

Why do i fail with my lovers?

You made them leave 

You told the lies and ripped them away from me

But im better now

I have to thank you 

I cried over losing you but i know what i lost that day

It was myself 

But guess where i found myself 

In the bottom of the ocean

dead and peaceful 

So why love when all  it causes is heartbreak?