Prologue.

Just a bit of background to the previous "A Secret Love" in case you haven't read it. And also a summary of what happened in the years between then and now.

My life the past 3 years �" Misery

Hi I’m Matilda, 15 year old social train wreck.

Why and how you ask?

Well it all started in on the first day of Year 7… The first day is usually scary right? Well I was actually so geed! I had my best friends Jacob (Jake) and Jasmine (Jas) by my side and nothing and nobody was gonna stop me. Until some stupid prick told Jake and Jas that I “hated them”, which isn’t even true! Then Jas started forcefully making out with Jake in front of me every time I saw them thinking that I cared. Which I didn’t… Ok, I did. A lot.

Obviously I made new friends over the years. Chynna and Julianne. They’re kinda my best friends. Well not really, but sort of. I don’t really know much about them even though we’ve known each other for 3 years. Whenever I try to engage a conversation about their past or primary school they instantly zone out, especially when Demi and her group walk past. They don’t really talk much about themselves.  They find my life fascinating. My life! I seriously don’t understand. I’m just another average Joe, plain Jane, kid next door. Well I guess travelling and seeing the whole world before the age of 10 is pretty cool. But my family is messed up. Mum is always working and I don’t even have a dad… Well I used to…

5 years ago my dad moved to London, England for work. He never really said what kind of work he was doing, he didn’t even tell mum! Then 3 years ago I got this phone call from this person telling me that they wanted to me to meet them at the school at 9pm sharp. So I devised a plan to trick my mum and I went. What kind of a stupid kid goes off to meet some creepy pedo person who probably has pubic diseases, that they don’t even know that asked them to meet them at a dark place in the late hours of the night? My 12 year old self obviously. Anyway, the wacko jacko on the phone turned out to be my dad. He had just gotten fired from his job and had come back to see me. I don’t know why he wanted to see only me… He started explaining all this crap which I don’t remember because I was thinking wether I’d remember to feed my pet fish Jimmy Bob before I left, he also told me some “Top Secret” blah blah blah which I vaguely remember. He obviously knew I wasn’t paying much attention so he asked me to meet him at the same time, same place the next Monday. I went to the school at 9pm the next Monday. I was probably waiting 2 hours. He never came. I’ve never heard from him or seen him since.

Mum filled in a missing persons report at the police station a few days later. Nobody has found him.

Veronique and Zack, my older sister and younger brother, got over him quickly. I’ve lingered on it ever since, because I still know he’s out there somewhere. But I felt betrayed and I still feel betrayed.

My friends list still remains on 2.

Jake and Jas are an item now. Jake joined the basketball team in year 7 and he’s now the captain. He hangs out with the jocks and goes to all the wild parties. But there’s an empty longing look in his eyes every time I see him, I try to avoid those moments. Jas joined Demi’s group of plastics. Well it was Demi’s… It’s Jas’ group now. Demi is now in the Goth group and attends counselling sessions every week with the school councillor. Best not to bring up that topic.

I’m still trying to work out who my friends really are. And I’m still desperately searching for signs of my father.

This is me. Matilda. Matilda Garrot.

And this is my story.

Author's Note

ignore grammar and spelling.