I Want To Live Life As It Is Meant To Be Experienced

I want to experience life as it is meant to be experienced

I want to live hot and dry and soak into my t-shirts as I run for what I think comes to serve nobody but me and my selfish desires, and my goal is to experience life in a way that the universe experiences my blind hidden soul and fans hum in my dark room of common books and despair, the electricity is out and i gasp for air but no more. No more! I want to experience life as it is meant to be experienced. I want to grab my ideas by its tight throat and pin it to the wall, look it dead in the eyes and sing them a song. Write them down on a piece of paper, make love to it and cast them into the heavens. I want my ideas to become part of the external world, the tangible solid realm, and wait for their return framed as coincidence, when I know it is part of the experience. And I want to experience life as it is meant to be experienced.