Once upon a time

once upon a time

I was lonely in the midst of heavy smoke

and golden barricades built by the past

and the contrast between crass ways we lead our lives

and the grass that tried its hardest not to be black

made me feel so heavy like the lungs of a chainsmoker

once upon a time

I was lonely amongst the crowd

crowded in the subway like cows

getting chopped up into meat for the consumption of the liars

who get their way by worshipping the ultimate object of desire

once upon a time

we created concepts of broken dreams

that could only be fulfilled 

and turned into a star

if you got the power to get your way up in the sky

and once upon a time

I was so lonely I could cry

and I did until I tore up my insides

with the same desire and ambition of a million stars

who long to be looked at

and told they are special

once upon a time

we all believed we weren't

that the only way to survive

would be to become what we all ultimately despise

once upon a time

there was another version of you

who understood life

and everything was fine

it was just fine

like the fanciest of wines

you had a sip and sighed

and thought 

thank God I'm alive

despite 

all the nights that were so bright

and the days that were so dark

I finally live in a world

where I am part of 

people

and I belong to no one else

but Love

and I'm okay with that

I'm okay with that