Anxiety

Being an adult

I don't know

I don't know if I'll ever make it

What if I fail at everything?

And what if I can't create my own family?

My parents will die and I will be all alone

I have to create my whole life

With my damaged dry hands

My own!

I don't know if I'll ever make it

Is life worth it?

When you're an adult nothing's fun anymore

Will I ever have a job I love?

Even if I create my own business

What is it all for?

Just making money 

Meeting up with people who are phony

Will I ever meet someone who loves me?

Will I ever meet someone real?

Is it possible to be truly in love?

Don't you just fall for the face

The legs, the hair and then the personality comes after?

And you grow old together but sometimes you don't

Your relationship decays

What about raising kids?

Could I and am I capable of raising a kid when I'm a kid?

I don't have life figured out

In fact I think life passes me by

And I still don't understand why

Why I'm alive

My heart rate is fast

And I read somewhere in the past

That if it's too fast you can crumble and die

I am scared to die

But tired of living

And even if I'm happy

I don't see the point

I find life so full of worms

That just eat you alive

And find their feist in your coffin

Oh I'm anxious of what will happen

Somebody make sense of it

I don't know what to do

I'm too anxious 

I need medication

Please pray for me 

Pray that I can sleep for 8 hours

And wake up the next day

Wondering the same things

Am I okay?

Do I need a doctor?

Oh, I just remembered that I'm an adult

One day I will be so grey 

Unable to walk straight

Who will be there for me?

What if I'll be alone my whole life?

And what happens afterlife?

Boy, I'm scared

Very scared of time

Time

It's all I got

And I got no idea what to do with it

Life

I'm scared of life

And it's all I got

All I ever will 

Am I okay?

Is my heart okay?

Am I okay?

Somebody answer me

Will I be okay?

I can't breathe

Anxiety!

Anxiety!