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Am I here?

The only thing I feel is fear.

Can you see me?

When can I be free?

 

You will never know the feelings that I bottle up inside.

The feelings you will never see, the thoughts that you will never read.

Look into my eyes; you will see pain.

Look at my smile; you’ll think everything is fine.

I go home, after a week of running. I figured, “Hey, I wouldn’t even be missed…”

I didn’t even think she’d notice I was gone.

I find a note, it reads,

“Things for Lauren to do May 13,2011.”

Then it listed

1.Clean house

2.Take out garbage

3.Do dishes

4.Clean sink/bathroom

 5.Pick up my room.

I read all my chores.

I throw away the list.

I ran up to my room and cried.

I was gone for a week.

I feel so invisible in my own home.

Do they even care?

I break open my dresser.

Pull out the ring box, open it and grab my razor.

I bring it to my wrist

I move o a corner in y room.

"If I die, no one will miss me..."

I press it to my flesh.

I watch as a spool of scarlet blood trails behind the bright shining

metal.

pressing harder, cutting deeper.

Holding my breth with every stroke of the blade.

I live in a world of people that don't really see me.

I can feel that adrenaline rsh through my veins as I cut myself open.

The scarlet blood covers my arms, it drips to my legs and floor.

Suprise, my body wasn't found 'til three days later.

A week later i atended my own funeral.

I lay in my own caske.

I see my friends.. but, no family, my boyfriend was there. I looks like I was only partly  invisible. 

 

 

 

Reviews

[LittleMissSunshine :)]

This really got to me.
I liked the point of view that it was from, and this was honestly a piece that stuck out to me in a number of ways, and I don't say that about very many pieces.
If I could give honorable mention, you'd get it :)
100/100

[AndyJCash]

There is a good idea at the start of that hurt of being invisible, and I guess the suicide is pinnacle to the plot, but I feel it's a bit cliché. Saying that, I know there will be many fans of this poem, so don't be disheartened. :)